i cant remember everything. but 大家新年快乐！

just realise i only do my reflections before chinese new year.
does that make me more chinese???

anyway, i dunno how to begin but maybe just random thoughts here and there.

在帮忙抹家具的时候，想：
when i'm young i'm so eagar to please the people around me.
especially the adults.
i'll do all the things that would make them happy.
so i mop the floor, wash the basins, wipe the furnitures... all very eagerly.

but now, i dun really feel like pleasing anyone just like that.
i want to focus more on me me me and me...
hahaha.. sound really self centered..
but just thinking...

and i seriously hate the double loop thinking which the HR teached us.
because then i'll have to think over the issue and think for others.
i dun want to.
now that's the part the teacher din teach us.

在抹钢琴的时候，想：
maybe it time that i re-pick up piano again.
i dun use to think about it this way but i think that it's really quite wasteful last time to have stopped half way.
if i've continued, probably i could entertain myself with it more.

在很费力的要把瓶盖转开的时候，想：
it would be really nice to have a man around.
there're just things which women cant do on their own.
i have to admit it. i cant be superwoman and do everything on my own.
that's a insane thought.
we all need someone.

在走来走去的时候，想：
is it that people become more stupid when they're older?
why did i kept on feeling that
now that i'm older, i know less and less things.
i'm almost on the verge of thinking i know nothing.
somehow, other people are still as smart, but i'm just not achieving anymore.
that's a big contrast to last time when i'm younger.
i used to think i know a lot of things.
i'm smarter and i can do lots of stuff..
not anymore. i dun think that way anymore..
why?

在吃团圆饭、捞鱼生的时候，想：
do i still need to wish for 学业进步？
well of coz i still got my last sem. but this kind of things is for the whole year isnt it?
half a year left.. well technically just a few months.
i'll probably have to work harder now.
but the fact that even though i always tell myself this and that.
do i really practise them?
i dunno.
but anyway, i still have to say:
work hard ger! jia you jia you jia you!

well.. there's still pieces of thoughts here and there...
cant quite string them together now.
so i'll just leave as that ba.
watever it is. i hope for a great year ahead. =)

to everybody:
新年快乐！恭喜发财！=)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
have a great new year!