my head doesnt work. (i think)

exam period now, so doesnt really feel like figuring out words from hanyu pinyin.
will revert back to chinese when i'm more free..
(which means another 1wk plus.)

summary of wat i did recently:
- 1 1/2 past yr paper. (first time in my life to attempt papers without first finish studying the notes)
- watched House. trying to make up for those episodes i missed on SCV. (House is really a nice show. but no thanks to tadpole who told me it's available on tudou.)
- eat (a lot)

nothing very constructive. but at least i made some progress in studying.
many thanks to the guys in struc lab for stressing me. really.. (if not i'll probably not have started.)

anyway, i've come to the conclusion that gers do like sweet talks.
but every person's frequency for sweet talks are different.
the same 'Hz' appeal to some but irritate some.
shld i count myself lucky to 'experience' both?

but anyway, coming to the next point,
i do not feel i'm responsible towards anyone to not to disappoint him or her.
not even my parents expect that much from me.
who are u to me to expect that?
shld i kiss ur ass or wad? be a suck up?
(sorry i'm rather jumpy recently, and not in the mood to entertain.
but in other words, the reason why i dun feel like entertaining u is becoz i dun want to.
in simplier terms, u're a nobody.)

i know robson dun like me to type the last line, but i just want to.
whether it boost someone's ego or wad, doesnt really matter.
wat really matter is wad i want to do isnt it?
go ahead.. scold me. i'm a completely stubborn stupid idiot.
(even i agree with it.)

i dunno why, i'm perfectly happy. but wat i type just turn out to be nasty.
does this show that people shld believe more in action and not words?
i'm confused by my own behaviour.

life isnt always a bed of roses. (it's probably true.)

and i think i probably watch too much House. (thus being so cynical?)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo