CRAP

was chatting with a fren about smoking thru essays.
i used to do that really well, till dunno when, i decide to be really honest and forget how to smoke thru papers.
(ok, that's not the truth. i just din know enough to smoke thru papers anymore.)

but anyway, talking abt smoking.
i smell that from my brother yesterday.
not suggesting that he smokes, since he's surrounded by smokers everyday.
just want to talk abt the smell thingy.
well, i think i'm attracted to unique smell. (of coz not any rubbish shitty smell.)
honestly, i dun think the leftover scent from smoking is smelly.
(but the fact is that i DO dislike the strong smoky smell when ppl are in the process of smoking.
basically it means i dun like the process, but i dun mind the after effect.)
in fact i quite like it. (weird i know...)
but i also like the scent from men's perfume.
i like those sweet women's perfume too. (but i dun use perfume.)
so the conclusion is just that i like special smell.
and i pay special attention to ppl with special scent that appeal to me.
(but point to note too, is that: i'm dun have a very sensitive nose.)
and i have a really bad habit too. once i catch that special smell, i'll try to keep it.
it's kind of like an addiction.
so if it's someone close, i'll just start sniffing. (hahaha... scary isnt it. but i try to do it in a subtle way lah..)
i dunno wat's the point of me typing all this crap. but it's just interesting to type crappy stuff.

anyway, on the way to sch i saw a car with an family inside while i'm in the process of arranging my notes. (wat am i talking abt? it's crap.)
but suddenly i felt envious. (ok, that's one of the 7 sins rite? envy.)
it feels good to have a family of ur own isnt it?
makes me wonder how it feels to have ur own children.
my mom just told me today that she nv feel like lazing on the bed every morning. (unlike me who, if there's no need to, will just laze on bed for hrs.)
and the reason my mom gave was: we are her motivation. (we = my brother and me)
interesting answer.
i knew i cant be a full time housewife. (i need to work! i'm quite a workaholic if it's something that i like.)
so how will i juggle between the two next time?
i hope i'll be able to do well in both.

now is really not the time to be thinking abt this isnt it?
hahaha.. it's the exam period!
but the journey to sch is always a good time to relax and let my mind wonder.
and basically i blog them out just becoz it's too late to study and i feel like crapping but no one to talk to.
cant bother the rest who are having exams. cant bother those who are offline.
so i talk to myself here.
great way to do self conversation.
not much thinking involve.
just total bullshitting.

i love crapping to my own head.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo