wat a day...

今天早报《现在》吴庆康的2359，一定要读。

写得棒极了。

上网找了文章里的那首歌的歌词。

There's a fine fine line - Avenue Q

There's a fine, fine line
between a lover, and a friend.
There's a fine, fine line
between reality, and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top
if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line
between love,and a waste of time
There's a fine, fine line
between a fairy tale, and a lie.

And there's a fine, fine line
between "you're wonderful" and "goodbye".
I guess if someone doesn't love you back
it isn't such a crime

But there's a fine, fine line
between love,and a waste of your time

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity I've got to close the door
And walk away...Oh...

There's a fine, fine line
between together,and not.
And there's a fine, fine line
between what you wanted,and what you got.

You gotta go after the things you want
while you're still in your prime.

There's a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of time.

歌词里写得多好
很多时候，很多事情
就只是 a fine fine line...

今天的2359引起了我的共鸣。
文字工作者就是不一样，
轻而易举的就能够把许多人相同的情绪表达出来。

相比之下，
我连我自己的情绪都不能完整地说出来，
真是差劲。

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uncle robson commented that my angmoh has gone from bad to worst.
shit.
i think i'm too used to using short sentences already. it's time to correct myself and start writing in paragraphs again.
and ya.. stop laughing at my spelling lah. i know i'm lousy at spelling. but word got spell check wad.

anyway, a number of ppl also commented that i wasnt myself today.
they say i sound depressed.
no lah. not very very depressed lah. i'm just felt that i'm not in control of my life currently.
and that's is bothering me quite a bit. plus i'm tired. i dun think i'm getting enough sleep.
(see lah... dare scold ppl for not sleeping. arent u the same?) but at least i know i'm not getting insomia. i just dun want to let myself sleep too early. dun ask me why. i dunno also. maybe i'm trying to stretch the amount of time i have each day. and that's definitely taking a toll on me.

but watever lah. fuck.

dun ask me why the f word came out. it came into mind and i type it out. i know it sound bad. (and look bad too) but i just cant be bothered to filter it. the blog is my fraustration outlet anyway. (at least i din end it with a exclaimation mark.)

i think i'm really bothered with XX.
shit him.
and shit myself for the part of me that's trying to be miss nice ger.
i dun understand...
how could anyone send a msg to ask if i'm angry with him,
just because i din sms him for like wad.. 2 days max??
wat the hell...
for no reason i sms u for wad?
u got ur life i got mine.
if u bloody hell want a sms so badly,
then u sms me first lah.
dun come and question me just for no reason.

i dun want to feel responsible for something that i dun even know i should be.
and i hate the part of my mind that constantly want to be the nice person all the times.
(i hate it that i'm constantly trying to be nice to everyone.)
and i definitely hate it that i try not to hurt anyone if possible all the times.
(no one will appreciate it ger. and u're adding more trouble to urself. so dun be stupid.)
i am not obligated to be nice. shit u!

i dunno why
but today i suddenly sound like an angry teenager all of a sudden.
but as i type abt XX the anger suddenly built up.
seriously, i'm not angry with him at all.
he did nothing wrong anyway.
i think i'm just angry with something else and he happen to be the target around.
sorry.
but i cant help it.