The 200th Post....

feeling really peaceful now
sitting on the floor
next to the window
listening to the wind
blowing against the trees.

suddenly i thought of this song:
杨乃文 << 静止 >>
寂寞围绕著电视垂死坚持
在两点半消失
多希望有人来陪我 度过末日
空虚敲打著意志
彷彿这时间已静止
我怀疑人们的生活 有所掩饰
嗯 垂死坚持
嗯 全部消失
嗯 已静止
冲动在瞬间消失 梦被稀释
不停转动著手指
我幻想美丽的生活 何时开始
时光不经意流逝
像颗在耗费的电池
我感到有点失落 无法抑制
嗯 垂死坚持
嗯 已静止

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went running with robson and zenov last nite.
again... i've got lousy stamina (plus ate too full)
i made them walk back from west coast.

along the way we crapped quite a bit.
but somehow i realise our topic will evolve into:
what you plan to do when you grad??

it's the hot topic nowadays for all of us i guess.
as the time from graduating gets shorter
everyone's getting nervous about what they want to do next time.

not saying it's not good
but it's just that i'm lost.

ya, u ppl will sure say:
you got a job already wad. lost wat lost?

but the thing is,
getting a job does not means doing what you really want to do.

I STILL DUNNO WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO NEXT TIME.

i guess the internship did have some impact on me.
it changes what i think about the industry.
now looking back, a year ago,
i'm really naive.
i probably didn't think or plan far enough.

seriously how could i just take up something which i dun even know much about?

somehow i'm still not sure.
maybe i need some guide to my direction.
but right now i'll make do with whatever that's presented to me.
if it's God's will, then so be it.
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towards the end of the run,
i kena shoot by the 2 guys again.
(haiya... think i should just get use to it. )
they started saying that i'm a 不正常的女孩子

...........diaoz..........
i very adnormal meh?
i cant help that nowadays all my company are guys
and thus my behavious turn a little boy-ish rite?
haiz...

i miss my St Nick days...
i miss my darlings..

i think i really need some female company!
or at least someone who will make me turn girlish...
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i think i talked about this topic before in my old blog.
it's the topic about telling ppl 'i miss you'
again it's the situation that:
i wish it's someone else who said that.

well, someone said 'i miss you' today.
normally ppl will go all melted over it,
(ya.. i'm admitting that i'm adnormal here)
but i'm horrible.

i changed the topic and
accuse the person as a girlish gu niang.
all is done as i assume the boy-ish side of me
and treated everything as a joke.

while i exchange 'miss you' with my females darlings
in a rather liberal manner.
but if u're not the one whom i hope to hear it from,
dun anyhow say 'miss you'
i get scared get easily.

but anyway,
STUMPY I MISS YOU!
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hey da shu! (since you claim u read my blog regularly)
robson ask me to ask you:
when can he get his badminton racket?
btw, do u still want to look at the laterns?
if possible, we can settle both things in one time =)