it's all ur fault.

i cant believe i'm really using wat uncle robson suggest today.
he say to get u to call me up i shld use these sorts of title to make u notice.

but the reason why i'm using the title is not to get u call me.
but bcoz i'm feeling a mixture of

pissed disappointment and sianz-ness.

pissed
i din get to go out with u tonight
if there's a next time, can tell me earlier not to wait?
i dun mind waiting. seriously.
but i dun like to wait for 'nothing'.
and the fact that everything is so 'not confirm',
it's like i'm nv going to know if there's anything till the last min.
when i quote "I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar,
but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.'
i dun mean i like spontaneous outings.
the reason why i quote that was bcoz at that pt of time i was going thru a difficult period.
and it touches me that i do have fren who will come to my rescue immediately when i call.
so it's really 2 different interpretations.


disappointment
i din get to go out with u tonight
bcoz of ur 'spontaneous' spirit, i was sort of expecting that we'll get to go out tonight.
afterall i tot we could go drink imt together.
but sadly that's not the case.
and there's also this thing abt me wearing nice nice to work.
when i wear something nice, i really hope to let u see it.
but i think it's twice already.
i always missed showing it to u.
the other time uncle robson say it's nice.
this time even xiao xin said i was pretty.
(and not that i want to be bhb,
but i think quite a few others tot so too from the way they look at me.)
so it's really disappointing that u dun get to see it.
coz the reason why i wore so nicely was for u.


sianz-ness
i din get to go out with u tonight
it's a friday nite dear.
it's not exactly a nite for staying at home and rot watching tv.
and if i knew i wont be going out with u, then i could ask other ppl to go out.
may i just ask this small little favor,
next time if u got any plans that may involve me,
can u share it with me earlier?
of coz it's nice having surprises once a while but not all the times rite?
it's kind of bad for heart.
but i think it's my own fault for assuming we'll go out after work also.
*slap myself to make myself wake up*
'from now on, do not assume. just take it as there's no plans at all', i talked to myself.


uncle robson told me i shld be understanding and be a xiao nv ren.
yup i shld.
but i just need somewhere to relief the things that are going thru my mind.
i know i shldnt be typing all these stuff here
coz u'll read them.
but if i cant write wat i want in my blog,
then where do i write them?



anyway, i din blog yesterday coz i was too tired after the shift from hall to home.
BIG BIG THANKS TO ROBSON AND DA SHU!!!!
for coming to help me moved the heavy heavy boxes.
and sorry for making da shu travel so far in order to get home.
but i'm really grateful to the both of u!
if u all din help i probably had to throw away lots more stuff than i already did.
hahaha..
it's just ger's nature to have so much stuff in the room ba. =P