超难过地

today i was super upset...
almost cried during work and after work...
if i haven made myself laugh then, i'm sure i wld have cried.
u know, that kind of 边笑边哭...

today just proved to me that when u're feeling really happy, things that can upset u will make u super super upset.
i was super happy today in the morning.
it was a pleasant surprise.
but it just had to be spoilt by some other ppl.
so what that u know some parts of the story?
it doesnt mean u can keep on harping on that anyway.
and even after i make known to u that i dun like it
u continued to do so.
good job
u successfully spoilt the day which should have been so great for me.

i was freaking upset lah...
but bcoz i'm at work
i cant show it.
in fact i had to smile nicely to the ppl around me.
it sux
and i hate it.
u all are damn rite abt me being a hypocrite.
i am.
to be able to smile and laugh when i'm feeling upset is seriously fake.
i am fake.

thank God for the time that i spend alone in the room today when i get back to hall.
thank God for the wonderful brother and father who came when i called.
thank God for the junk food that i found in my room.
i'm feeling much much better.

this would have been a really nice post about my happy morning if not for some ppl.
grrrrr! *angry*