i can see the moon from my window...

it took less than 10min for the moon to raise up from my window.
but it looked really pretty... :)

was staring at my msn pic.
realise i've got really big hand.
quite long actually.
but i like! hahaha.. i think my hand in the pic looks pretty.
almost girly... :P

interview tml.
spent the day preparing.
erm.. actually not lah. manage to complete other task too.
happy!
hahaha...

think i had my share of exercising for the wk le.
walked quite a fair bit today.
lab to archi auntie. back lab then to another lab.
lab to yih then back lab.
dinner at science then walked back to room.
so yup! my legs are aching. :P
hahaha.. just kidding. quite happy to be walking actually.
thanks uncle zenov for walking with me~
hahaha.. though he's not exactly willing. :P

anyway, learnt some stuff from HR class today.
hmmm.. let me get my notes...

okie dooky..
here is goes:
if we continuously under-perform, we cannot sustain (long term) in a role.

well.. it goes with the previous lectures theory that
we need recognition from others.
and as we're highly defensive and always want to protect ourselves,
we cannot sustain in a role that we kept under performing.
under performing open us to humiliations and etc. (things that we dun want to experience)

ok.. not sure if u ppl will get my point,
but then i felt that i can relate to it lah.

i mean, during the class the teacher did mention that while trying to sustain this role,
we'll have to invest our resources into it.
resources could be time, money, emotions, energy etc.
so if we kept on putting in our resources,
i felt that there'll be a day the resources runs dry.
and that's why in long term things will not work out.

it will just reach a point that we give up.
or we seek other audiences that could give us the support that we need.
human are such self centered beings isnt it?

and then between the 2 types of support we can gain from the role we play,
i think i can say i hunger more for extrinsic rewards than intrinsic gratification.
not exactly someone with very high self esteem so not much internal power to satisfy myself lah.
that's why i feed on others positive comments about me.
hahaha.. but nowadays not so easy to get ppl say nice things abt you lah. :P

it's funny how everytime i talked abt serious things,
i'll want to turn it into something not so serious with all the 'hahaha's and smiley faces. or sometimes i'll just give weird answers to questions.
is it that i'm a joker in nature?

but maybe it's becoz when i talk about serious things,
i've tendency to turn it to a very dark side and i hate to affect ppl with such things?
my wish is for everyone to be happy.
even though it may be difficult..

see see see.. i've just did it again.
i try to be serious and it goes negative.

guess i'll just stick to my smiley faces and hahaha then..
let everyone be in good mood. :)

anyway, was missing someone really terribly today in lab.
hahaha... was filling up the application form for the interview and the feeling came.
hahaha... poor uncle zenov had to bear with my moody mood and hear me mumble nonsense...
paiseh lah! hahaha.. see lah.. who asked u borrow staple from me? so u have to tahan all this nonsense..
but at least i helped u find house episodes! hee... :P

i'm too excited for tml's interview!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo