the worst weekend...

this's the worst first weekend of the year.

at first it was just me misbelieving some 说说而已...
which wasnt that bad coz i kind of expected it.
it's just upsetting that something i take to heart isnt so by whoever that says it.

when ppl say 好戏在后头, it's true.
coz the worst came just when the weekend is about to end.
and just when i tot maybe it's not going to be such a bad weekend afterall...

parents brought me to ikea to buy shelves for my room.
pick out 2 that i really like. in fact i had been eyeing them for quite some time but just din get it coz i cant possibly carry both of them back myself.
then exactly when we were just about to check out the items,
brother called to say he got into an accident.
thank God he wasnt hurt or anything. but the car is in real bad shape.

then parents decide that they wont scold brother.
coz they want to give him room to think about his own mistake.
but somehow there must be an outlet isnt it?
so i end up being the target.
i totally hates it when the one who's suppose to get it, gets away. but the other one has to take it.
it's not that fair isnt it?

and say i wasnt giving a response when i get scolded.
who in the right kind of mind will want to argue back?
Seriously, if i really want to talk back, u can shut up totally.
u probably wouldnt have a chance to talk one sentence even.
so maybe u shld be thankful that i'm willing to take everything down silently.

i'm so totally upset that a thought that never ever cross my mind came.

I AM GOING TO MOVE OUT OF THE HOUSE.

it's not just shifting to the hall this time that i'm talking about.
i want to move out when i start working.
i'm not going to let her know but plan it starting from now.
i dun believe that given one whole sem i couldnt come out with a good enough plan to get out of house.
i know it might not be sufficient, but i'm going to start giving tuition.
somehow, i'm going to make sure i've enough by the time i work.
no more staying at home.
it upsets me to leave some of my stuff behind especially since i use to think i'll stay at home till the day i marry.
but it's really the limit already. i dun want to get stuck.