能不能

i'm really tired. but i know if i dun blog today. i probably wont be able to repeat wat i feel another day.

anyway, 天冷就回来 is good~ even if 不值得看, 也值得听... 真的有被感动到了...
一首首熟悉的歌曲，既有着清新的味道，也留着旧时的影子。
听着听着我掉泪了。特别是当剧里陈叔提起妈妈的时候，我特别有感触。

i guess i'm really not destined to be a giver.
wat i make nv seem to be able to be delivered.
(it apply to all the ppl around me. no special case it seem.)
and for today i'm sad and angry at the same time.
it's like the effort went unappreciated.
i almost wanted to tear it apart.
but uncle robson forbids me to do it as his face is in the photo too.
but i still threw it away. without the pic in it though.

actually i shldnt be too bothered abt it lah. it happens all the time anyway.
so i think i probably really shldnt attempt to make anymore stuff.
next time get a instant one.
why make when can buy?
stupid ger.

i'm really not doing wad i want to achieve thru the blog title:
i must be happy.

i'm in depress mode so often.
that's it's getting to the point that nothing can excite me anymore.
not even money.
and when even money cant make me smile.
i'm seriously in deep deep deeep problem.
i guess i really need to find something to keep me motivated.
maybe it's the travelling around too much these days.
maybe it's the environment that's sucking my soul away.
i dunno.

when i jaywalked home today.
i thought:
wont it be nice to get knock down by a car and not be bothered by anything anymore?

i think i'm scaring ppl by saying that.
but dun worry.
i dun dare to die.
i'm always a think and no action person anyway.
so it's just 说说而已.

i've lost a receipt. and it's getting on my nerves to find it.
somewhere somehow i've got to find it.

我好累啊
我只希望找个人依靠
有那么难吗
因为不想对人不公平
所以不能随便依赖
可是我真得快撑不住了
我只是想借个背靠一靠
可以吗？