沉默玩具

变成一个影 隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸 我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限期 模糊我自己
不愿升上白旗 输了你的游戏

你和他 对街拥抱 我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人 会难过
为什么对你舍不得的人总是我
爱上你 需要那真情意 收在日记里

寂寞天天不休息 让甜蜜全也忘记
幸福不再美丽 可是我会在意
执着对你无限期 模糊我自己
不愿升上白旗 输了你的游戏

你和他 对街拥抱 我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人 会难过
为什么对你舍不得的人总是我
爱上你 需要那真情意 收在日记里

为什么对你舍不得的人总是我
还是你 需要那真情意

真爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不得的人总是我
还是你 需要那真情意 收在日记里


my new favourite song... more or less concluded my beginning and the end...
曹格 is amazing... he's reaching the stage of bringing out my tears when i listen to his song...

today i finally realise how much i'm afaid of loneliness...
i really cant work in the cold cold library alone... my mind doesnt focus and all i manage to do is to write out the formulas into the helpsheet... and i cant force the examples into my brain and i dun understand what i'm writing at all..
so by lunch time i thought i had enough and actually thought of coming back to hall to mug... (no exactly a wise choice coz i dun work well alone in my room too... hahahah... )
then as i'm still in the 'walking' mood, i decided to walk thru yih... and pass by clubroom... honestly, i'm a bit afraid of going in... coz i'm scared i'll see ppl i dun want to see...
but heck lah... i sort of took a big breath and walk in loh...
i'm so glad i did... coz it's much much much better to study in a place with ppl u know... and of coz there's sound surrounding me... (library too quiet when i'm alone...)
and the most impt thing is that inside i manage to shut my mind and start doing serious studying... (when u're alone u start to think abt all sorts of rubbish... )
so,... i've quite a fruitful study trip in clubroom.. =)

我害怕寂寞
害怕周围的一切一切
我需要把自己埋葬在人群中
用声音重重的包围着自己
让不安的情绪远离我。
我需要的眼泪，为什么不见了
发泄不了的感情
犹如深沉的铁片，压得我的心
一下也跳不了。
沉默，我不要沉默
美丽的好心情，快回来吧
我宁愿我什么也没发现
无知的人是幸福的
我现在明白了。