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Migration...

2008-03-23T00:24:00.001+08:00

终于决定搬家了。

http://giamgiam.wordpress.com/

到这里拜访我吧！:)

what's his problem??? that idiot just have to piss me off.

2008-03-22T00:29:00.003+08:00

I AM VERY VERY ANGRY!

so angry that even though i was asleep just now, i had to climb up and blog abt it.

i dun like that groupmate who freaking cant organise things himself!

why the hell cant he voice out that he cant make it at 6pm when we were deciding on the timing to meet?
and why the hell cant he msg the rest of the group and ask if they're ok with the change?
so what that you dont have one of the member's number? can u freaking ask any one of us for it?

u are the idiotic freak who cant take the initiative to get things settled.
i was kind enough to msg the rest and try to settle on a proper timing FOR YOU ok?
now that bcoz i set it on our ORIGINAL timing which u cant make it, then u make the effort to contact the rest.

and freak u come and try scold me for setting it at a later time and make the rest cant go home earlier.

dun come and msg me say u dun understand why i want it at 6pm. and say the rest also want to go home early.

freak i can give u thousand and one reasons why i dun want to come earlier.
and i can also freaking hell dun come at all and u guys will have nothing to practise on.
dun freaking make me pissed to the max and i'll do stunts on u ok!

the meeting is tml and u freaking cant decide to tell us earlier that u want to change timing.
it's not my fault ok.

and dun try to act nice and say i can come at a later time.
coz if i came at a later time u guys will have nothing to practise with!
and when that happen, u are going to blame me again for this and that.

i hate it when ppl make last min changes.
just bcoz u want to go for some special service doesnt mean i have to accomodate ur change ok!
u're not even a christian in the first place.
u're only going coz a girl ask u to go loh.
u think i care abt that?
freaking hell no!
i have no empathy or so called nonsense for someone who cant take charge of his own things.

and freak u make me have to rearrange my own schedule for u!
who do u think u are?

and dun freaking msg ppl after 12 and try to blame them for something which u should have done urself earlier!
u dun want to sleep that's ur own business!
i need my rest ok? damn it!

i am so damn pissed i just want to show that idiot black face tml!
no it's actually later in the day! grrr!
lucky he is not doing the project with just me,else i'll just freaking hell dun make it to the meeting at all.
for goddness sake, he din even contribute much to the project anyway!
i can easily list what the rest had done.
but what has he done?!!?!?
except that 4 pathetic pdf file which he uploaded to the yahoo grp.
he din even bother to type out his interview in a proper word file loh.
and who's the one who had to type it out for him instead?
ME!

so freak!!!!!!!

i am pissed pissed pissed to the max! ANGRY!!!!!!

today would have been a wonderful day if he had not turn it into a terribly lousy ending for me.
freak!
and if i'm a guy, this post would have become full of the 'F'our letter word.

that idiot is damn lucky that i want to be responsible for my work no matter wad. else i'll make sure everyone sink with me for the project.

i dun even want to be understanding with him anymore. not even after knowing his fyp is not going well. coz i just think that it's his own problem for not pushing hard enough.
I CANNNOT STAND HIM! no matter wad!

still ANGRY!
he better pray that my mood will get better after sleep.
FREAK!

me is happy.

2008-03-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

just walked back to room from lab.
long day playing with the soil.

虽然一整天冷冷的，
回来的路上却是热热的！
心暖暖的。

sometimes it's just so easy to be contented. hee. :)

life is beautiful.

smelly pig is going to bathe liao... :P

冷

2008-03-20T17:46:00.002+08:00

开始有点疲惫了。
为什么你都不关心我的？
今天早上的大雨，冷得不得了。
好希望你能关心我一点，传则简讯告诉我：天气凉了，记得多穿点。披件外套吧。
感觉我一直在一厢情愿，把自己的意愿套在你身上。
你是不是快要不能呼吸?

哈哈哈。。。突然想起恶作剧2吻里，
湘琴哭坐在紧闭的房门外，说的一句：
为什么只有我一个人在哭？你根本不爱我嘛！
看到那一幕，我只懂的跟湘琴一起哭。
感觉自己和湘琴是一样的遭遇。

哈哈哈。。。不过戏里的直树是真的爱着湘琴。
对湘琴的冷和严厉，是为了锻炼湘琴独立。
你对我也是一样的吗？

我不喜欢自己变得如此软弱，
不喜欢自己老是有想见你的念头，
不喜欢自己这样没有安全感。
不喜欢那么那么多的什么什么。。。
却喜欢自己那么地喜欢你。

人就是那么那么的矛盾。

对于这样不知道是怎样的关系，我受不了。
可能骨子里真的就是工程师的性格吧，
就是无法忍耐如此的不清不楚。

我看我真的是被冻坏了！
所以才会有如此多的抱怨。
早上的天气太冷，
来到实验室里的冷气也太冷。
都是我无法控制的冷。

而我也是那么无法控制的想念你。

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

i actually read hardwarezone! gasped O_o

2008-03-19T21:26:00.006+08:00

i was too happy over the meeting with prof that i forgot i wanted to blog abt this list uncle robson showed me last nite... hahahaha..
he say he agreed with all... and claimed that normal guys all think so too..
is it true??? :D

28 things about guys

1 Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them! (oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE) - i've nothing against this except for the sentence within the brackets. too mean le ba?

2 Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. - uncle robson say he only agree it's true bcoz of the 2nd part of the sentence.. hahaha..

3 Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. - really???

4 Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him - really??? again...

5 Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. - really??? again*2

6 Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. - how to reassure?

7 Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

8 Guys get jealous easily. - really meh??? uncle robson claimed to be so lah... i wish guys get jealous easily too.. hahaha..

9 Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think. - ya loh... looked at the number of ppl complaining to aunt agony here...

10 Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. - sometimes really nvm mah... think so much for wad leh???

11 Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like. - really??? again*3... uncle robson says he's like that...

12 A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. - really ah???

13 Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships. - how to tell leh?

14 Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. - ya.. sometimes i also think guys think far far far too much for their own good. why cant everything be direct? dun understand just ask loh...

15 Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused. - i raise both hands in agreement!!! my aunt agony mailbox is full to the max liao loh... but y they so funny one, ask ah boi for advice...

16 When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." - is it???

17 If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. - is this trying to say guys dun talk serious stuff usually?

18 If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you. - sometimes i think same for gers...

19 When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them. - oh...

20 When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. - thinking of wat???

21 Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do. - i also think so... sobsob... what shld ah boi do then??? :(

22 A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. - cant tell.. like the sentence say wad.. problems that cant be seen with naked eyes. like that how will gers know? again i think guys might as well just say it out. share mah...

23 Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. - this one ah... uncle robson say i was popular during internship last time bcoz i'm not a snob... wah.. thanks ah.. wat a comment.. hahaha.. i dun think i can ever be a snob loh...

24 Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. - hahaha.. talk abt wat??? i also want to know!

25 Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more. - who will like it leh?

26 If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you. - i think i'm horrible.. i nv even say anything. i disappear.

27 Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. - is it??? sounds like good news to me then? hahahha..

28 When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. - i think this's the sweetest among the whole list.. :)

there's actually a girls version some sort similar.. but then it's

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for.
wah!!!! 45 leh... somehow it shows that gers are more demanding hor??
hahaha.. i went thru the whole list too. but i'll just list out the ones which i agree with.. :)
(erm.. which is quite a lot also.. hahaha.. )

1. Actually talk to her. - girls just like to talk lah. :P

2. Share secrets with her. - it makes her feel special.. :)

3. Give her your jacket. - i like this coz it feels warm! and like kit chan's song 让我像躲在你身体里

4. Kiss her slowly. - sure melt one... :)

5. Hug her. - i love this most! hahaha.. :)

6. Hold her. - hold hands! sense of security.. :)

7. Laugh with her. - isnt it important to be happy together?? :D

8. Invite her somewhere. - girls will be girls.. we just like it that guys take initiatives...

9. Hangout with her and your friends together. - it's nice but then i'm not too sure abt it.. coz i shy mah... :P

10. Smile with her. - show that we're happy mah... :)

11. Take pictures with her. - but then guys dun usually like it.. :(

12. When she says she loves you more,deny it. Fight back. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her. - eh.. the 'I love You' part i not very sure whether i like it or not lah.. but again, i like the hug!!! :P

13. Kiss her unexpectedly. - this will definitely melt the ger! but then pls make sure she like u first... or u're already in a relationship. :)

14. Tell her she's beautiful. - who dun like it? guys also like ppl say they handsome mah..

15. Tell her the way you feel about her. - girls are curious animals. we just want to know..

16. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman. - very very important to me! last time in sch open too much door for others liao.. so i really like ppl to open door for me.. :)

17. Tell her she's your everything -only if you mean it. - of coz say it only when u mean it lah...

18. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-so just hug her. - hahaha.. again i like the hug part so i keep this in the list.. :)

19. Make her feel loved. - easily said than done... but girls like it and want it lah...

20. Kiss her in front of OTHER girlsyou know!! - hahaha.. PDA! sometimes it's the thrill.. :P

21. Don't lie to HER. - this is ultra super duper IMPORTANT.

22. DON'T cheat on her. - another rule that shld nv be violated! it's very hurting.

23. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her. - this is very sweet! but maybe too difficult for guys to maintain.

24. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you. - this is really sweet and touching. to know there's always someone there for u.

25. Hold her close when she's cold soshe can hold YOU too. - i like this! :)

26. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her. - hee.. i like! :)

27. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY. - eh.. i like the first part. but then the kiss part behind... hmmm... nice is nice lah.. but then like that how to watch movie??

28. When people DISS her, stand up forher. - it's the same as being there for her loh...

29. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her. -eh.. i think it's sweet lah.. but then sometimes it's too 肉麻 to hear it...

30. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you. - erm... very 'romantic' but then i only like the part abt listening to the heartbeat.

31. When walking next to each other grab her HAND. - woohoo~ guys who take initiative is the best!

32. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible. - i simply couldnt resist hugs! :)

33. Call or text her at night to wishher SWEET DREAMS. - nice lah.. but again i think too difficult for guys to maintain.

34. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears. - if guys see girl cry dun just stand there...

35. Take her for LONG walks at night. - super romantic! especially for ppl who like to walk.. :)

36. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her. - hahaha.. just think it's quite nice lah..

hahaha... wat a long post... just find it interesting lah...
whoever that can finish reading it till here, is amazing! :)

all this talking abt guys and girls make me missed someone lots!
i miss you i miss you i miss you. :)
u know who u are.. :)

今天淋雨了

2008-03-19T14:30:00.002+08:00

happy happy happy!
finish another meeting with prof over my fyp. :)

this time is much much better...
dun feel depressed like the other time.. :)
no more 'eh eh eh...'
i manage to answer his qns and talk abt my project!
hee.. got improvement! :)

and prof leung is super duper nice!
going to work harder and harder for fyp! :)
now got motivation liao.. hee.. :)

but first, going to work hard in lab now.
hahaha.. i'm typing this post from geotech lab. :P
jia you jia you! :)

and when i'm walking back from prof leung's office,
我淋雨了！
it's been a while since i walk in the rain already...
feels really good. :)

but then hor...
how come it never rain when i'm out with da shu???
it would be romantic to share umbrella with him. :D

the rain formed a huge mist...
i cant even see the yard clearly.. O_o

okok... stop dreaming le...
work work work!!! :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

aunt agony is in agony...

2008-03-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

gosh... why are there so many ppl asking me for love advice?

does talking to me gives them courage?
asking a 'ah boi' to guess what a typical girl thinks is a torture.
bcoz i've no idea. i've only know the sorts of weird ideas i have for myself.

headache... i think i ate too much chocolate and have not enough sleep..
hopefully it doesnt develop to a fever.

i pray for my fren's success so that he will not call me up again later.

who can i ask for my own?

pain... :(

2008-03-18T15:48:00.002+08:00

常常觉得脑袋的记忆容量太少，所以拼命地把大大小小的事都写下来。
感觉自己越来越像只金鱼，很多东西都记不牢。
害怕将来如果有一天失忆或是老人痴呆，就失去经历过的一切一切。

宿舍房门太重，昨晚手指在关节处被狠狠地夹住。
真的和uncle robson 是好朋友，现在终于能够了解他那时被铁片压到手指的痛。
肿了黑青了。痛痛痛！:(

今天穿了一套好看的top with bottom，
可是自拍拍不到，改次再多穿好了。:P

U频道-传闻中的七公主真的好好看！
每一次都边看边哭，太感动人了。

明天又要到lab去。
神啊！保佑我不要在受伤了！

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

365th post & 201则

2008-03-17T00:20:00.004+08:00

i really have to blogged abt this weekend coz many many things happened.
hahahaha...

sat:

had petroleum makeup lecture. lunch at prof palmer's place. dinner at airport. JEFF CHANG'S CONCERT!

bcoz we missed one lec before mid term break, we had to make up for it on sat.
it's on evironmental issues related to the petroleum industry.
but the thing worth mentioning is...
i actually read one of the book prof palmer recommended in class before!!!
hahaha.. feeling a little proud of myself for that. :P
coz i dun ever had a chance to have read any books the professors introduce before any lectures.
so it's a FIRST! :)

after class we walked over to prof palmer's place at kent vale for lunch!
prof palmer is super duper nice to invite us to his house!
and i love the view from his place lots lots!!!
his window is big and wide!

then, prof palmer's wife is pretty and nice!
she's old already lah.. but she the type whom i felt aged gracefully. :)
and she's really warm to us students. :)

prof palmer is a interesting person.
hahaha.. i think he's a natural academic who gets intrigue by people or things that's foreign to him.
i'm still quite surprised that he bothers to try make small talk with me and actually to the extent of ignoring kiat hui the best student! :P
but then hor... i dun look like singaporean is it???
even prof palmer asked whether i'm singaporean... :(

anyway, i think prof palmer and his wife is such a loving couple.
i can feel it from the way prof palmer always mention his wife in class.. :)
and the respect that his wife gives him from the interaction at his house. :)
i wished i'll grow old with that someone and stay as loving as them! :)
it's such a sweet thing... :)

ok... after the lunch i rushed home to put down stuff and change.
i din had much clothes to choose from coz i never iron any.
so no choice had to wear the spag which 害me 走光 at cac camp dinner nite. :(
lucky this time i've got the small black jacket to hold it in place.
wonder how on earth did i got persuded to buy this piece last time... hmmm...

well, no time to do much preparation coz i'm already running late to meet cousin already...
so it's just light makeup and out of the house i go...

finally reached the airport after many many checks... saw a few pretty cute custom police. :P
but anyway, that's not important.
the special event in airport is that:
i ate popeyes chicken for the FIRST time!
hahaha.. that make me sound quite sua ku hor?
funny that i've been to the airport so many times but i nv went up to eat it even once...
but anyway, it's really nice! comparable to kfc... :D

and then it's finally time for the concert!!! wee!!!~~~
all i can say is it's fantastic! time passed by so fast that i din want the concert to end!
the combination of ochestra with jeff's voice is almost perfect!
hahahaha...
but then wat's with his maggie mee hairstyle???
jeff is really getting a bit old le... first some of the pics i took got double chin, then i saw a small tummy and he voice wasnt as good as before le...

some of the songs he sounded a little too stretched... but it's ok, the concert is still good good good~!!! :)

I HEART JEFF CHANG! hahaha...

the whole concert was themed with different art eras... and there's actually screens at the back of the stage showing famous art pieces. and the following is my FAVOURITE!

Gustav Klimt's Stoclet Frise : Fullfilment

i know the artist is more famous for his other piece 'The Kiss'. but i really like this piece. and 阿哲 was singing 做你的男人 while this piece was in the background.
the feeling which this painting gave me was simply too great... i want to be hug so tightly too.. :)and this piece is so colourful that together in this scenario gave me a very 幸福feeling. :)

there's actually a lot of feeling i felt throughout the concert by it's really kind of difficult to elaborate with words.
i sort of think this concert is most suitable for lovers. :)

took some videos and post it up on youtube le.. :)
(does youtube always take so long to get the videos posted??? i spent the whole nite!)
but then my hands were a little shaky sometimes... the spiky hair sitting in front of me kept wanting to stick his head into my videos... and i was singing horribly behind the camera...
so if u think u can tahan all these,

go here: http://www.youtube.com/user/giam85
(uncle robson, if ur fren want to watch, u can let her know too! hahaha.. )

anyway i did took photos of 阿哲 in all his different costumes... :P
lazy to upload all one by one here. so i posted all on my facebook photo album already.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=18600&id=634699036
not sure if this link will work but it should be easy for u all to check out my facebook and click urself lah..

the concert brought back all my memories for 阿哲's songs... think this wk is going to be intensive looping of all his songs liao.. :)

sometimes memories are so strong u cant wipe them off...

Sunday:

sunday is my favourite day of the week.
hee... went out with da shu to tampines mall!
hahaha... thank God this time i din make him wait. even though i was late myself.. :P

i also dunno how, although we agree to walk walk at tampines mall... i end up walk walk -ing the building myself.
hahaha. but i did accomplish my mission for that day which is to buy hair clips!
din get to see clothes though.. but nvm lah.. see le also no money to buy... :P

i din really know why i wanted to go tampines. just haven went there since more than a year ago... want go see how the place had change ba...
but it's interesting. i got to visit the quiet corner of TM. nv went there before.. :P

anyway, accompanied da shu to sim lim and we took our first bus ride together.. :)
it's a pity now we use ezlink on bus.. if not i could have kept the bus ticket. :P

i'm still pretty amazed by how he knew all the places in the building so well...
and then i dun see what's wrong with spending time in there.
i find myself pretty fasinated by the things they have over there.
just sadly i'm dunno enough computer stuff, so many things appear foreign.
but that's precisely what so fasinating abt the shops there.
there's simply so much to learn!

hmmm... going out with him always usually confirm i'll go home with a expanded stomach!
seriously i dunno how he find space to stomach everything. :P
especially including the drinks...
although recently i'm in the 'constantly hungry' state. but i still cant keep up. bleah!
growing fatter and fatter liao... hahaha.. :P

and i'm getting more and more vain liao...
went out without makeup coz i thought just going tampines so nvm...
if i knew i'll step into town, i'll make sure i cover myself fully with the power...
hahahah... like cousin and me always say: we've reached the age that we dun feel comfortable showing our bare face to ppl already...
and i feel that my face look far too pale without anything on.. bleah!

i did have lots that i want to blog abt, abt the topics thta we chat abt and little things that happened.
but it's getting difficult to structure them into words.
i know wat i want to talk abt in the brain but couldnt translate them into words.

it's just like when i take photographs, i try to squeeze everything i see with my eyes into the picture.
but da shu taught me yesterday that there's no need to fit everything within the limited space.
it's sufficient to just fit those that could convey the mood within the picture.

i guess it's the same with blogging.
i dun really have to write all the nitty gritty details.
i write those bcoz i want ppl to know everything that happen to me.
but think i'll try to change.
for better or worst, who knows? :)

i love going out with da shu.
there's always so much i could learn from him .

oh i almost forgot! something calls for some sort of celebration!
this is my 365th post.
although it took me more than 1yr to achieve this, i'm still glad that i did.
and i accumulate 201 of something which means i've reach the level target.
shall look forward to the arrival of the 300th. :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

2008-03-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

this post is to make up numbers..
the next post is going to be really really really long...

haahaha... suppose to be sleeping by now.. but then i'm uploading videos to the youtube!
my first time...
hahahahaha.. :)

if only the dream is real...

2008-03-14T09:26:00.005+08:00

if my dream is real
i'll be the happiest girl on earth.
that's why i kept on sleeping to keep the dream going,
even though my favourite SUN is out today again. :)

sometimes ppl just like to stay in dream even though it's just a fantasy.

but then i've no idea why these few mornings i kept getting woke up by people's sms.
Arghh.... why at times when i want to be dreaming???
and **** lah... i am not aunt agony! i dun and cant help u really.
haiz... sometimes it's just difficult to get that into ppl's head.

maybe my temper is getting shorter.
i dunno why i'm getting so irrtated.
when i know he just want an outlet to vent his sorrows.
but then again... i'm not exactly the best candidate for that leh...
his ex has much much more priority in my list than him.
and that make me freaking cant understand why i'm being chose to be complained to.

haiya... cant be bothered.

anyway, my room is terribly cold at nite lah!!!
i tot i 'on aircon' last nite loh...
had to wrap myself up like a cocoon and the body just 瑟缩成一个球...
冻死我了!!!
but then i've got very nice dream last nite so i'm not complaining... heehee... :P

Sunday is simply such a difficult day to get someone out.
4 out of 9 Liverpool matches (till May) is on sunday.

maybe i should be thankful that at least their matches are on quite 正常 timings
so the matches on saturday dun spill over to sunday?

haiz... i shouldnt be worrying over such things.
Better start working on my assignments.. busy weekend coming! :)

我要认真惜福，人家已经很迁就我了。
所以不可以发太多牢骚哦！:) *100

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

my hands and feet are freezing...

2008-03-13T22:20:00.004+08:00

back from the NetworkONE reception.

this is so not the place for us offshore student.

more than half of the room is shipping related industry.

hahaha..

the only companies we talked to are the usual few.

keppel, sembcorp, st marine.

din even need to fill up forms anymore.

some of them even remember our faces. hahhaha..

the pic show the sticker they made us paste on ourselves.

and the bag they gave us when we left.

all i can say abt this organisation is that

they are very rich.

but i'm not impressed.

thought there could be better management of the event ba.

it din look as glam or important as i thought it would be.

afterall they seem to have spent much effort in preparation.

anyway, the event was good for us offshore student to network among ourselves lah.

some of our juniors came too

so we chit chat a bit. hahaha...

weyling and edina came too!

so we three girls had so much fun creating a din as we're laughing like crazy at the side of the reception. :P

anyway, talked abt something else.

i think uncle robson is really a very sweet guy.

i heard all the effort that he is willing to do for his special someone i also touched.

hope he's successful in his life long project.

and dun always think of the negative side.. be more POSITIVE!

uncle robson JIA YOU! :)

oh on a even happier mode,

MPA approved our internship allowance le!!!!!

which means money did drop from the sky.. heeheehee...

happy happy happy.

ok.. i sound very money minded. hahahahahaha..

but then i got a bit pissed when one of my classmate came and talked to me abt it.

maybe i'm biased. but i dun understand how he could talk in such a irritating way.

haiz...

hmmm... i've no idea but suddenly this thought came into my mind.

飞蛾扑火...

i check the online dictionary and the chinese one is:自取灭亡

i like the english one better. it's a little more romantic: to flirt with death

and then attached to the explanation is this little poem:

我在苦苦寻找

一个光明的城堡

为我驱散黑暗

让我安心依靠

我在苦苦寻找

一个温暖的怀抱

可以抵挡寒风

可以相守到老

传说中在心心相印的地方

有个光明的城堡

那里洋溢幸福

就像祥光普照

传说中那真心相爱的恋人

都有温暖的怀抱

他们相信真爱

可以天荒地老

我不顾一切

闯进你的城堡

就算熊熊烈火会将我燃烧

我闭上双眼

投向你的怀抱

就让熊熊烈火来将我燃烧

甘心忍受　爱的煎熬

甘心承受　爱的烧烤

好不好　天知道

天有情　天亦老

只是我　死也不逃

of coz ppl wouldnt consider it as a very fantastic piece.
i dun think it's very good either.

but it's the idea behind it.

to throw urself into a fantasy even though u know it's going to be torture.

weyling just now said it's especially the torture of "not knowing", that's sweet in a pair which has yet developed into couple.

however, uncle robson say we engineers want precise answers.

i wish there's a space in between.

for it doesnt seem to be so easy for me anymore.

always, when it's cold and dark outside

my hands and feet will freeze..

wouldnt it be nice to have someone to hold my hands

and snuggle with me under the blankets in bed

to keep me warm? :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

Finally there's SUN!!!

2008-03-13T12:37:00.002+08:00

ok... not really. there's sun in the morning
but rain in the afternoon..
kept seeing lightning flashing in front of my window...

but it's good enough!
at least i've seen the sun and feel it! hee... :)
thanks to uncle yix who woke me up with an sms asking for struc 2 lab report. :P

anyway, uncle robson seem rather troubled recently.
he's blogging more than i am within a day!!!
that's really rare...

but anyway, he posted 古巨基's 好想好想 and it led me to watch other videos lah.. :P

found this song which i think is quite nice.
but rather sad...

伤追人

伤追人 - 古巨基
作曲：側田(On Your Mark)
填詞：林夕
編曲/監製：雷頌德/Ted Lo

本應打九九九可以求助
無奈你不是像持刀傷害我
我到底驚慌什麼
為了分居只好請你留坐
誰料你竟脅持他當陪坐
如像一把掌摑我

知了電腦雜誌舊信合照護照尚有一個電爐欠你這麼多
要他幫手也太絕吧
讓我欣賞他怎羞辱我

＊我最多把軀殼暫時就當不屬我
麻木去受你最後重擊一趟
怕什麼我堅拒為情敵駁火
原來傷懂追我不必去躲＊

或者他好得必須要炫耀
無奈我的劫後餘生都賠掉
寧願以後不見了

給你大我辱我累我害我話我問我一切事情
已了結清楚
我只想禱告看命運
還能想得出怎虧待我

傷口早已忘我分開得夠清楚？

there's also the english version which i tot is nicer.
and i think some parts of the lyrics is quite touching.
but it seems that the lyrics doesnt really goes with the melody.
it sound like a chinese song forced into english.
but maybe that's due to the singer's voice.

dun think i'll post the video here.
but here's the url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aQHYZvPkq4

and i check out 古巨基's 我自问again.
this time i watch the mtv together while listening.
and i changed my opinion abt the song.

the song is nice. and the lyrics is pretty good too.

i've no idea when i tot it's not nice the last time.
now i especially like the lines when he sing:

憑好心專心真心小心愛到你多放任
and
唯一懂忠心苦心不懂對你放膽去問

ok... off to iron my clothes...

Peer Review

2008-03-12T13:27:00.005+08:00

was chatting with uncle robson last nite and dunno how we ended up doing peer review for each other.

and we promised we'll not be offended by each other comments.
coz we want to hear the truth and only the truth mah.. hahaha..

but then uncle robson ah... dunno whether is he too nice or wad..
din really write anything shocking to me leh.
and he still say "too used to someone, very hard to find fault"
pengz... then how come i still wrote so much abt u??? :P

and then the things he wrote abt me,
i know it too.

he said i'm too naive, too trusting and give too much to ppl..
i'm cant say i'm not as he said coz that's who i am.

i suppose that's becoz i'm always in a very well protected environment.

imagine a life like this:
when young, stay at home and read storybooks. dun really watch tv. sit beside mother and watch her do work.
primary sch, no doubt went to a neighbourhood sch but before i knew it, went into the 'A' class where every kid is smart and study very hard. cant really get a bad influence from them rite?
sec sch, got into a girls sch. ppl there also very smart and study very hard. sch in amk but hardly go amk central to walk walk. after sch =go home. how bad can a child be there?
jc, one of the top jcs. again everyone is smart. plus the class got lots of indian scholars who are very very smart. everyone is a good student. the most bad we can go is to skip class and cross the road to the hawker center opposite to eat.
uni, everyone is smart and background almost the same. ppl i mixed with also sama sama like me. plus cca is go do comm service. how to meet bad ppl like that?

so i've never done anything real bad or meet with anyone real bad too.

i suppose that's y i am naive rite? i haven met with anything that will change my mind drastically. and when everyone i met with till now has been such good people, it'll be wrong not to trust them rite? how can i doubt people without any proof that they're bad? and when they're ppl so nice, i'll feel bad that i dun give my best to them. afterall, they're my friends. and if i want to help or do anything for anyone, i'll give all i can give.

so by the time i reach the real world, unless i'm super 'heng' till i continue to meet with very good ppl, i'll probably die in real world.

(the most jialet thing is, i actually know this will be my 下场. but i dunno how to change it. i think i can only try to gain experience as fast as possible after i got thrown into the real world. learn the tricks and fast fast dun let ppl trick me too many times.)

but anyway, uncle robson also say i form an impression of people very fast.
that's is so so so true lah!!!
and he also say once an impression is formed, it's very hard for me to change it.
that's another fact lah!

i knew this had been my problem since dunno when lah.
i knew! but dunno how to change.
can i blame it on my character?? for being 爱憎分明?
and then when the impression is formed, i tend to stay away from those whom i know i dun quite like lah. like that i dun interact with them. even harder to change my impression rite?
even though sometimes i may really form a wrong impression of them.
but there're cases which i did change my judgement for ppl from bad to good lah.
but not really one from good to bad.
let face it: when i think someone is good, even when there're times they do not so good stuff, i'll hold on to the impression that they have something good within them.
and maybe it's just me not wanting to admit i made the wrong judgement.
i hate to admit that i'm wrong. i have very thin skin.. :P

ok.... if anyone did manage to go thru the nonsensical chunks above,
well done!
even i dunno wat i'm reading. i think i'm trying to come out with excuses.

just let me sum up wat uncle robson think of me.
naive, too trusting, too giving, daydreamer, emotional and forms impression of ppl too fast.

all of it i agree. totally.
but uncle robson still got this last point:
i could have achieve more in life.

my view on this point is that i've under achieve.
but uncle robson win me in positive thinking this time. he felt that it means that there's more for development.

well, actually i know i can achieve more too.
but it's kind of a dilemma to me.

yes one hand i'll like to achieve more.
be ambitious, join lots of activities, get better results, work harder and gain more etc etc.

however, i want to be a 小女人too.
i dun want to be too smart, achieve too much, be too active or be the 女强人as uncle robson said i could be.

it's such a delicate balance isnt it?
i dun want to appear too 强悍in front of people,
but sometimes i feel that the situations forces me into it.

many times i just want to look stupid and let others take control.
but then when ppl shy away from responsibility i feel the need to come out and help.
dunno how,
slowly i just build up a reputation that i can get things done and ppl expects me to do it.

i think it's the problem with the character.
anyone got suggestions how i can change??

hahahaha.. if anyone want to do a peer review for me,
go ahead!
send me when u're done ok?
i'll appreciate learning from them. :)

and if u want me to do one for u also no problem! hee...

back from prof chan's first lecture this sem.
as usual, compared to other modules i've taken from him,
i fall asleep.
but woke up at the 2nd half of the lecture! hahaha..

tml's going to be a busy day...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

emotion cycle *updated

2008-03-11T14:00:00.007+08:00

people's mood go up and down in cycle.
some shorter some longer.
i conclude mine to be moderately long.

so after 2-3days of moody-ness
i'm getting 'it' back.

got a really nice friend who once a while will come and kajiao me and make me laugh.
thanks!
and thanks for asking me to join u and ur friends to de-stress this sat.
too bad i've already got something on... :(

sometimes when u see someone else having what u dun have,
u start to envy and it really affects ur mood.
i guess that's what happen to me.
hahahaha.. but in life that's what happening all the times.
cant always get all the things i want isnt it?

and i think the lack of sleep is really haunting me.
hahaha.. went down to lab today to help out and the PHD student asked me if i'm very stress.
erm.. sort of ba.. i am stress but then still surviving lah.
it's just that i din have enough sleep so i looked rather zombie-fied.
:P
oh! and i cut my arm when i knocked against the table corner in the lab.. sobsob... pain pain!

hahaha... i visited uncle zenov's blog just now and look at wat i say in his comment:

whoever-concerned::: from my exp (as in, all the confidence (as in,
confiding in me) i had) with gals, they like MCP guys who juz ‘grab their hands
and say: so we’re together’, or grab them by the shoulders and start to la-she
(stir tongue, a.k.a french, a.k.a tongue-fight). haha…

this is so true! i cant agree more.. :)
i suppose i was counted in as one of thoses who confide in him. :P

anyway, i was reading one of the books i borrowed from biz library. (i haven return them yet.. :P)
and i saw this paragraph:

the display of expected emotions by service agents
during service encounters. It is performed through surface acting, deep acting,
or the expression of genuine emotion. Emotional labour may facilitate task
effectiveness and self-expression, but it also may... trigger emotive dissonance
and self-alienation.

it's exactly wat was being mention yesterday during HR class.
but they were refering to workplace.

i felt that there's more to it.
this paragraph is actually very true in every people's life.
i suppose we can all treat ourself as service agents.

For my case i classify myself like this:
surface acting: to strangers
deep acting: to friends
expression of genuine emotion: to my family???

sometimes it's like there's so much acting involved that i dun really know what i'm feeling inside already.
so it's important to have emotional downfall for me.
it reminds me that i'm truely not feeling happy
and it let me take my time to build up my happy feelings.
i guess it serve more or less like a control switch.

so if one day i dun ever get sad or angry anymore,
it could mean the switch is spoilt! :O
by then i think wont even know what are my feelings already.

just a scary thought.
dun think it might really happen. :P

a fren told me to focus on happy thought.
so here's one:

I'M GOING TO JEFF CHANG'S CONCERT ON SATURDAY!

wee~~~ it's even better than going for prof palmer's hse for lunch this sat. :P

almost forgot! i'm still looking for this song! can only find the youtube version now..
anyone have the song please send me k! :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

*********************************************************************************
update on 2nd part of the day:

gardenia's banana walnut bread is really nice.
it's now doubling up as my snacks and meals.
and it smells good too! :)

i'm feeling absolutely de-stressed now that i've handed in my assignment for petroleum!
prof palmer is so nice! nv scold me. still smile smile with me.. heee.. :)

and then i think i finally realise wat was bothering no stop since sat.
after my conversation with cousin...

giam:
coz i went out and smile at someone whom i dun realy want to go
out with, so it makes me sad
and wish i had went out with ZZ ZZZ instead

and guess wat cousin reply...

miao @ work : shitty day:
oh i see.... no wonder..
hmmm... then go out
with ZZ ZZZ this weekend lo

haiz.. if so easy i will be dancing in the clouds already...

hahahaha.. but anyway, when cousin tell me abt going off work with someone,
i find it really really sweet.
hahaha.. reminds me of the time during internship when i will look forward to lunch time and 下班时间...
time when i can see that someone too... :)

2008-03-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

i din sleep to make up for my lack of it.
stayed awake and this thought came by:

我要去喝酒！

uncle robson, onz?

i suppose i support the theory of 借酒消愁 or rather 消stress...

screwed up.

2008-03-10T13:11:00.002+08:00

my schedule for the weekend was all screwed up.
din manage to complete the target i've set for myself.

didn't sleep last nite.
dun ask me why but i just sat at the table till it's morning.
think i procrastinate too much.
simply refused to type out my HR reflection paper even though i've already written it out on paper.

went to sch really early to print the paper out.
had lots of time so i went mac and bought a sausage macmuffin with egg for breakfast.
walked from engin thru art's lovers park to the classroom in biz.
the morning air was really fresh and it's nice taking a walk among the greens.

just came back from sch
i think i shld sleep but felt that the time could be used to do more stuff..
shall see how.
let me tidy up my stuff a little first.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

very random rumblings..

2008-03-09T22:46:00.003+08:00

i say i'll update abt what happen on sat so here i am reporting.

and yes i know uncle robson is only interested in the orchard trip.
so i'll start with that.

uncle robson was right abt me not being able to stay awake after the flyer trip to complete the HR essay.
i had to do the essay on sat morning.
and of coz i din manage to complete it by the time i was suppose to leave the house for orchard.
and so... by 1pm i'm still at home.
so i was late for 1 full hour by the time i reached orchard.
felt really bad. but i really got no time..
we started walking and talking
and honestly i dunno how to shop like that lah.
din enter any shop at all. except kino coz i want to look at books.
then he tell me haven eat lunch yet so we went to eat lunch loh.
i wasnt hungry and my mind is still thinking how i'm going to complete the HR essay on time.
so while he's eating, i took out the notebook and continued writing.
it's very rude i know but i did ask for permission!
he say he dun mind one.
and we say bye bye after lunch.
so by 430 i'm happily on my way back to type out the completed HR essay and
thank God i upload it before CC screams at me. :)

the above is for uncle robson reading pleasure.
which also concluded the first half of my day.

then 7pm zhengling and her bf came to fetch me go for baoguan's bbq at Pasir Ris.
thank you to ZL and her bf!
but then felt a bit out of place coz most of them are seniors whom i dun really know well.
din want to stay till too late so i left together with the young ones.
lucky we all stay in the north. so they din mind sharing cab back with me.

so after this long long day.
i used up all my 笑容配额for both sat and sun.
today just not in the mood to smile at all.
it's tough smiling constantly for other ppl without the heart smile for them.

and today this song caught me.

F.I.R. - 需要你的爱

当你选择了云的距离
就这么自私做个决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
也许无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你
以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白

我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排

我会用眼泪
洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开

别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋

我需要你的爱
听着信接近嘶喊的唱，
心突然很痛

我知道我不是你的谁
可是就算是朋友也会互相关心吧？

突然有点泄气
是不是每次都我主动，
所以你可以这样漠不关心？

也不是希望你天天的问候，
但是有时简单的一个“加油”，
可以吗？

我小小的希望有人疼
而且不希望你被被人比下去

为什么我连不高兴都表现的如此卑微？

因为心里很多闷气发泄不出
所以心情很不好。

sometimes i'm glad that i'm a girl.
coz we're entitled to mood swings.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo (a lot)

Flyer!

2008-03-07T11:39:00.041+08:00

i thought i would be called vampire for the post before.
but uncle robson call me wolf. :P

no idea why he seem to be against that post. hahaha.. i meant it in a really simple way leh.
uncle robson i suppose u imagine too much!

but ok lah... i shall keep my post today the usual kind which uncle robson can digest.
hahahaha...
(actually it's bcoz no topic to write abt liao. and if i write so long every nite, i will become zombie due to lack of sleep. hahaha.. )

* image intensive! dun bother if u dun like to see me. hahahaha..

let me start from friday nite. when i brought the camera to sch and took funny pics. hahahah..

had a sundae from mac and first time i realise that there's a hole inside!
i thought it looked kind of like a rose though.

this is so unfair! uncle zenov overtook me as uncle robson's bestest uni mate.
so he got a bottle of chicken essence!!! i also want! :P and see he so show off.. hmpf.. hahahah..

we're the 2 gilahs stand in the middle of the road waiting for either a1 or a2 to come. which ever come first, we dash across to that side of the road.
while waiting... we tried to take a pic with large tree in the middle. and this's our best shot!
hahaha.. i like coz my face look small inside. :P

finally the day to go take singapore flyer!!!
so here i am in my room trying to act pretty lah.. hahaha.. :P

we had to wait at the SRC bus stop.. i was bored and decided to try out the green filter in my computer.
like not much diff ah??

and we finally reached!
and i tried to take artistic shots.
but i know i lousy at it lah...

the full wheel!!! but then there's far too many trees i think..

and this's the logo! hahahaha.. got multi coloured lights somemore...

i tot the sky looked pretty nice.

hahahaha.. my best shot of the capsule..

the inside. so blue! i think weyling will like it alot.. hahahaha..

and here are the construction site cranes! so many...

my attempt to capture the sunset... but not very successful lah..

i tried to take scenery pics from inside. but then the glass were quite dirty. (maybe they should invent some anti-markings glass..) and as the wheel is turning.. (ok.. 废话) so all my pics turn out blur lah...

the following are some of the clearer one lah..

ships ships ships!

my fav pic! uncle robson is very good at taking pictures!!! very 难得i look so sweet lah. :P

we were almost at the top and the one in front of us got no one inside!

i shall end of with a scary pic of both me and uncle robson! hahahaha..

the whole trip wasnt as exciting as i thought it would be.

i guess i was spending too much time trying to take a nice pic instead of appreciating the views.

so really should go take it again for a better experience!

and looking at the sooo many couples walking around..

i think it would be really nice to go walk walk at that place.

make me want to spend a day and go walk walk with someone too... :)

okok.. one last pic. to go with the sweet sweet talk...

couple kissing with the wheel as background!

almost wanted to buy but it cost 60bucks!!! gosh...

hahaha... anyway, just to irk uncle robson's pure mind a little.

i read from channelnewsasia website that:

Doing dull chores could improve sex life, US experts say

hahahahaaha...

wat do u want to comment this time??? :P

ur friend is a coloured wolf!

but dun worry. not interested in u. too boney liao... bite le later my teeth drop. hahahahahah..

hmmm.. this post is too long le.. shall blog abt today's event tml then... :P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

i think it'll be nice to go on the flyer with u. :)

Bite.

2008-03-06T23:31:00.004+08:00

stuffed the camera into my bag for dunno what reasons.
so i ended up taking quite a bit of photos just now.
but i dunno why i cant upload any photos.
so leave it till tml then one shot upload all ba.

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anyway, i saw it somewhere that
a large proportion of gers like to bite their partners.

无可否认，我还蛮认同的。
咬人，其实是一种亲密的表现。
因为如果是随便一个路人，是绝对咬不下去的。
只有关系非常密切，才能够咬得下口。

男生总是觉得被咬就一定只有疼。
其实不然。
咬也是有很多种咬法的。
有干的、湿的，留痕迹、不留痕迹的，
大力咬下的、或只是轻轻nibble的。
不同的心情的时候，也就会有不同的咬法。

个人认为，
能够找到一个愿意让你大口咬下，
并且不忌讳咬的力度大小、时间长短的人，
是非常幸福的。

我必须诚实招供。
我其实非常喜欢咬人。
没有人咬，我会咬我自己。

是有点变态，
可是我喜欢咬下去之后，
舌头可以尝到皮肤上那咸咸的味道。

非常生气，或非常难过的时候，
我会狠狠咬一大口。
这样痛的感觉，就会提醒自己控制好情绪，
凡事都要忍耐。
不过，发白日梦的时候，也会咬上一口。
让自己快快醒一醒。

不过我觉得最挑逗人心的，
还是那轻轻的nibbling. （还想不到华文词汇里，有哪一个可以代替这个英文字的）
就这样一点一点的轻咬，
一点一点的舔着肌肤上的微微咸味。
感觉就有如品尝点心般的滋味，
就有着那么一点的勾魂。

当然，这都要等到我找到愿意让我不计后果咬下去的那一位，
才有可能发生。
现在的我，
就只好自己咬自己喽。

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found another very nice oldie.

For Your Love

For your love,
oh,I would do anything
I would do anything,
For your love

For your kiss (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh),
oh, I would go anywhere (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh)
I would go (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh), anywhere,
For your kiss

More foolish I grow
With each heart beat
But we all get foolish
That's why I repeat

For your love (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh),
oh, I would do anything (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh)
I would do anything
For your kiss

[sax interlude with 2 (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh)'s by backups, who are chiefly sopranos]

I would do anything,
For your love (anything, anything, anything)
For your love(ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ooh)

i really like this song a lot.
especially the Peaches and Herb version.
tried my best to search it online but couldnt find any.
Does anyone have this song???
Please send it to me if u have it k?
Or else is there anyone who could help me download it?

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

my memory is bad???

2008-03-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

当我感到灰心的时候
你会不会为我添油？

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just came back from a test which i think everyone will score full marks
i suppose the lecturer just want to give marks away to everyone?

the lecture before the test was long and boring...
gave me lots of time to 胡思乱想
and scribble many things down.

i did listen to the lec too lah!
it's just that the lecturer kept linking the econs stuff to treatment plant.
it's gets irritating after a while.
i'm not taking "wastewater treatment", i'm taking "engin econs" !

吊起来卖
this sentence is so easy to understand
but so difficult to practise.
i cant count how many ppl told me this same sentence already.
but i dunno how to do it.

there's this new person who enquire abt my relationship status just now.
funny how he seem more 激动over it than me.
i can almost classify it close to 见义勇为type of behaviour liao.

hahaha.. he says if he meet a ger who's very 主动, he will xing dong.
but the problem is, i've no idea he meant 行动or 心动.
hahahaha...

sometimes i think the female species read between the lines too much.
he says: just the two of us?
she thinks: now i know u doesnt really want to come out with me.
does the guy really think like that?
no idea.

anyway, i was walking on the stairways at E1
and 张雨生's 我期待suddenly started playing in my head.
kind of weird coz i din hear it for quite some time already.
but it just suddenly popped into my head.

and talking abt song...
i heard this really nice song in Ally Mcbeal.
but the story behind it is kind of sad though...

Goodnight, My Someone

Good night, my someone.
Good night, my love.
Sleep tight, my someone.
Sleep tight, my love.

Our star is shining its brightest light,
For good night, my love, for good night.
Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be --
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now good night, my someone, good night.

"True love can be whispered from heart to heart,
When lovers are parted," they say.
But I must depend on a wish and a star
As long as my heart doesn't know who you are.

Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be --
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now good night, my someone, good night.

Good night! Good night!

this song was originally from 'The Music Man' by Meredith Willson
i like it.
although it's old, it's touching.
especially after reading btween the lines, u realise that the singer is waiting and singing to someone she doesnt even know yet.
the sad scenario now for those unmarried career woman who secretly hold on to their romantic beliefs.

alright, like the song says: GOOD NIGHT!
hahahha.. time for me to hit the pillow...
i just check the news: Hillary's victorious in Texas and Ohio!
yeah~ hahaha... i have absolutely no business with the america's elections
but i personally quite like Hillary lah.
so i'm glad that she's still in the running~ :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i wish u din tell me abt the painting with the 2 faceless kids
now i'm having phobia going to the common toilet at nite.
especially to wash my face.
coz whenever i close my eyes.
i can picture the 2 faceless kids in my head.
i tried to focus my mind on something else.
so i tried to picture u instead.
u end up being faceless too!
it's terribly scary.
how could i not remember ur face? :(

i guess i'm a stupid idiot.

2008-03-04T12:10:00.004+08:00

a fren told me he just broke up.
i asked if he's ok.
that's a stupid question.
i just din use my brain enough.

but anyway, none of my business exactly.
so i'm not going to be all bothered abt it.

i'm finding interesting articles in the new york times website.
weird that i'm actually catching up with the news daily now.
something that i dun usually do.

anyway, it's really cold recently.
there's not one nite now i can sleep without wrapping myself tight within my blanket.
and i'm actually thinking abt wrapping myself up with the 2nd blanket.
(yes. i have 2 blankets in my room. i'm scared of cold! )
so it's almost back to the time in yr2 when i had to wrap myself with the blanket everywhere i walked in the room.
it's just too cold.

*update: i'm walking around with the blanket around me again.

i think i'm under stress recently.
that turn me back on eating crap.
very bad habit i know. but i cant stop myself.
it's almost compulsive i felt.
a bit of a lousy feeling.
just hope i dun fall sick like that.

went running with uncle zenov last nite.
i seriously haven run for far too long already.
by the time we reached the fong seng junction i'm feeling like crap and on the verge of vomiting.
the only thing is that i've nothing in my stomach to relieve.
but thanks uncle zenov for making me continue walking.
the lousy feeling subside after a while.

but it's still a good run!
i mean if i'm seriously considering applying for police, i'll have to train up isnt it?
like ppl say: the police cant run slower than the criminals rite?
and running does block out things.
i could only concentrate on counting from 1-10 in my head.
and not think abt other things. :)
lovely.

picked up a few Ally Mcbeal episodes online.
i suppose i really have changed much from secondary.
last time i used to think it's really funny,but i dun really connect with Ally.
now, i still dun connect. but i sort of understand where she's standing. why she does and says all those stuff.
but i dun find it funny anymore.
it's just not so funny now.
it's even quite sad.
i suppose the original intention of the show is to entertain.
but yet when u start to stand in the character's shoes, it takes the entertainment factor out.

suddenly,
i dun like to grow up.

and i'm bothered by the fact that i actually had it in my head how many more to the 200 mark.
it's ridiculous. i'm paying attention to something really stupid.
if only i cared so much abt my work, that will be great!

i think i need sleep.
tml is going to be a long day.

and i'm in another desperate need to sing.
i'm crazy.
slap me to make me wake up.

sigh... i need to go GV to watch one movie soon!
applied for the membership card and i still haven find a time to go down to collect it!
another 10 more days before i cant collect the card anymore.
anybody interested to watch movie with me?

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

little things make me happy.

2008-03-03T15:06:00.005+08:00

i'm a nice fren! hahaha..

went to help uncle robson to carry back his concrete samples from the ultra ulu lab. and i guess i must be super lucky too! we got a ride back to the concrete lab. hahahah..
and we were so super happy to sit at the back of the lorry while the bangla drove us!
uncle robson commented we were like going to be sold by the bangla le.. but we still grinning like mad..

hahaha.. below is the very shuai uncle robson

and that's the crazy me! smiling from ear to ear.hahahah.. no eyes somemore

and how could we miss taking a shot together to prove that we were really sitting at the back of the lorry??? look at the stretch of road behind us! (if i had to carry the samples back by foot... )

so yup... that's a simple event that make big big happiness~

many thanks to the bangla that drove us back! :)

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had a chat with one of my darlings and i concluded that

YES i have a bad fren!

but NOT the kind that will make me do naughty things with.

(ok.. maybe a little. :P)

but the kind that will try to drop naughty thoughts into me.

(so now i know where i get all my naughty tots from.. :P)

hahaha.. not going to be x-rated here but then it's something interesting i heard from my fren.

and it sorts of make me think,

why is rabbit being linked to sex?
i do know what it means but then it's just funny for me to link the 2 together.

*i'm lazy to elaborate on this so just use ur imagination :P

anyway, i'm feeling jealous and happy for my frens after hearing what's happening to them.

see!!! i'm contradicting myself again. :)

but whatever lah.. i'm still very happy for them. hahahha..

nothing seem to be able to spoil my mood today. :)

thinking of buying a simple ring for myself.

no special meaning but just felt that my hands look empty.

and it'll be good to have something to touch subtly when i'm feeling nervous during presentations rite?

hahahha.. besides, if i'm to wait for a bf to buy together when i'm attached,

i'll be lao kok kok le ba??..

oh.. hahha.. today during HR class, as i was looking abt my hr tutor, i suddenly thought...

her features (especially her nose) look like the sculptures i saw in the Greek exhibits!

*sidetrack.

she told us to mess up the qns in our survey. coz she say some smart ppl doing the survey might figure out what we're trying to extract from the suvey and then their answers might not be as accurate.

when she's saying all this, only one thing came into my head.

and that's what House always said: EVERYBODY LIES!

so true... *

actually, now that i've got time to think and indulge myself longer in my memories of the exhibitions.

the more i like the pieces i've seen.

and it's definitely much better to see the actual pieces than thru pictures online etc.

the amount of details on the pieces amazed me.

if it's really possible to had view them when they were just made, i guess i would have just stare in awe.

it's probably going to be hard to make me move from that spot then.

lucky i'm not Pygmalion and doesnt know how to create sculpture, so i'll not fall in love with the statues.

but really, wouldnt it be nice if i know how to create such wonderful sculptures?

(i always have this kind of artist dream inside me.. hahaha)

i've been going through the greek god list just now and if i'm going to be one of them.

i want to be PAN.

dun ask me why, but his statue in the exhibit is the one which i felt the most connection with..

(the other pieces were possibly much better and it's merely an insignificant piece but i just felt intrigue by it. )

of coz i do know that there's been sort of negative connection between him and certain qualities.

but i like the way that he seem to be free-spirited.

and most importantly, he's the only god that was dead. :)

(i dun want to live an immortal life)

suddenly got addicted to 陈洁仪's 喜欢你

i think my neighbour is getting a headache listening to me singing again and again.

I WANT TO GO KTV.

(always say want to go want to go.. but then in the end also nv go.)

someone said my muai chee is nice!

and make me very happy!

just dun complain next time when i stuffed u up with food. :P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i was saw this article from my fren's blog and i tot u might like to read it.

The advantage of closing a few doors

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/02/26/science/26tier.html?pagewanted=1&_r=1

*off to work on my assignments and deadlines... :P

stop thinking.

2008-03-02T21:54:00.002+08:00

came back from the greek exhibition.

wasnt exactly what i expected. but it's still quite inspiring lah.
get my head thinking of some possible sketches.

but seriously i din expect the exhibition layout to be just like that....
everywhere also dark dark de. maybe it's bcoz the pieces cannot be expose to too much lights?
but it cant really be the case since so many ppl are taking pictures rite???

*i opt not to take pics coz i came to the conclusion that if i really want to look at those pieces i can google them anytime. and not like i've got a super good cam with me anyway. and actually i'm kind of bothered by those ppl who kept on snapping snapping with the flash lights. erm.. shouldnt we at least try to appreciate the pieces?

just tot that the museum could have presented them in a more interesting way. my eyes hurt from reading so many words with so little lights. :(

i think maybe there's something wrong with me.
but i wish the museum can adopt a more open concept.
more windows more lights or something.
i cant help but feel weird that the exhibits are all contained within dark places. (sort of)
or maybe it's bcoz it was raining today. so the sky also dark dark de..
aiya.. just very different from what i have in mind of a museum. and it's definitely very different from the museums i see in movies and through their online website.

where's the sun when i want it to come out?

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work.
how much effort shld we really put in?
i certainly dont agree with becomming a workaholic.
but i cant help but become one myself when i got really engross with work.
(it does happen. just not so often nowadays.)

i think i contradicts with myself very often.
such a complicated person isnt it?
but like ppl always say, girls are complicated.

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eating style.
how exactly does one eat to look as if the food is really good?
like the hosts from japan hour?
i have no idea how to eat interestingly.
and i cant help but eat in a so called organised manner.
is that a bad thing? :(

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how to spend money.
i've no idea what are the branded brands.
i've no idea how much is needed to get a decent bag.
i've no idea how to spend big sum of money.
but i do know how to spend money on things that will make me happy.
going for a movie. having a good meal with frenz. going for concerts.
buy games. rent bike to cycle. buy clothes. etc etc...
but most importantly for me, is that i spend within my limits.
i suppose that's good enough already. :P

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ok.. i suppose i'm thinking too much again.
but then going out with him always spurs me to give thoughts to things i never would have consider before.
hmmm.. or maybe i did, but not to so much depth ba.

but anyway, yeah! i brought my running shoes to sch le.
uncle zenov, go run ask me along k?
i desperately need to run.
need to clear my head.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
:) i guess liverpool's winning.
just saw the score and it's 3-0 already.

wanted to blog long long one...

2008-03-01T11:29:00.002+08:00

Humiliated by Singapore. Now they need the Interpol!

i was baffled by my friend's intention of this comment when i see her nick on msn.
find that her views were a bit too strong. but of coz she's entitled to state wat she thinks.

ok.. i wanted to go one long long post talking abt how our police shld be allowed to make mistake once and etc..(ok.. just trying to act that i do keep up with current affairs.)

but actually, i dun really care.
and yes, people of that race looks more or less the same to me.
i dun even think i can recognise the person on the street.
ok.. maybe only the fact that he's really very short (1.58m), might catch my attention.

so in actual fact, i dun really care abt current affairs.
but i must comment that keeping up with the happenings locally and around the world is a good way to keep conversation going.
(this is wat i think after joining the yishun ppl's gathering for the first time.)

and wikipedia is really such a great place to gain general knowledge.
interestingly, i stumbled upon the person jim gray.. (coz i read abt him from the microsoft worldwide telescope) and this lead me to read more abt the turing award, which then led me to read abt the artificial intelligence and some science fiction authors.

it's really just nice coz they talked a bit abt these topic just now while we were having dinner.
although i din really talked much, it's still good that i had a general idea what they were talking abt. hahaha.. but probably becoz more than half present are engineering students, thus they talked abt such technical things.

anyway, was really glad to join them for the gathering. happy that they like wat i made~ (all finished up!) and just pure happy to see them after such a long long time. :)

shall invite them over to my house after the exams! :)

oh! and thanks quek for the ride home. although ur joke was really a bit...diaoz... but i got back at u with the slap on the head! hahaha..
but but but.. sorry sorry... it was really dangerous for everyone on the car.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
cya tml! :)

i did absolutely nothing today again! (oh no....)

2008-02-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

it's a very complex feeling that i'm having right now.

on one hand, i'm happy that

i'm having company to visit the greek exhibits.
i'm going to spend time with someone i really like to spend time with.

but on the other hand, i feel bad for making the person come out coz

someone isnt that fascinated with greek mythology.
and has been really busy at work.

*************************************************

after much thinking and some chit chat with a fren,
i guess i shall just heck care my guilty feelings!
no use feeling bad and stuff.
just make sure we have a good time out! :)

afterall, the most important thing is still...
i'll be able to see him!
(that makes me very happy already... :P)

since i'm happy i want to make him happy too~

it's actually just so simple.
why did it take me so long to get it?

全世界的人都知道

在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼写给你的纸条
幸福划上星星记号

你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好

one of the songs from 恶作剧之吻
i suppose it fits what i'm thinking.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

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ok.. going to talk abt something really unromantic now.

had to help clear up some stuff in the kitchen just now and found one big cockroach
well, to kill a cockroach, one must have a plan.
it's obvious that they run everywhere, anywhere.
so while it's keeping stationary, let it be and plan exactly how to kill it in one hit.
to anyhow strike it has a very high possibility of missing.

so now my house got one on the lose.
bcoz i'm not the one killing it.
hope it will not find its way into my room.
(esp. since my room is the closest to the kitchen)

scared. :(

did nothing today.

2008-02-28T13:23:00.003+08:00

today's post is just going to be the nitty gritty details of wat i did today.
(skip it if u dun really care what i did.)

hahaha.. i shall start off by saying i did absolutely nothing then!
the first real holiday feeling day of this mid term break.

din touch any work related stuff today.
but i did woke up earlier than usual.

wanted to play sword of the new world.
but the server's down for maintanance.

diverted my attention to the 'book'
so i started re-reading it all over again.

oh.. i did brush teeth wash face in between too.
but the toilet stinks!
i've absolutely no idea how the girls can stand it..

afternoon came.
went kitchen to fill my kettle with water.
(one needs hot water for cup noodles leh. )

one of the gers was cooking.
minced meat with cabbage in soup i think.
smell really good!
make me want to eat cabbage too!
and a little hand itchy to cook my own food too.

but...
when i opened my cup noodle.
it contain cabbage too!!!
hahaha.. so ger is satisfied. :)

anyway, since i on my comp.
i felt the need to utilise it.
and i end up being pirate.

suddenly feel like listening to 古巨基's songs
so i downloaded a whole chunk of them.

my fav. among them...

不如留低我

你说你　太喜欢我
我永远都不要死
谁知我突然　
拿生老病来嬉戏

我说我　更体恤你　
爱到看通生与死
其实即使先去也都欢喜

无论谁先死　剩低的　
比去的伤悲
会不禁憎你　
让我靠自己
冥想不会庆祝的钻禧

留下来想你　后悔地　
想破何谓美
留地球嬉戏　
罗马假期中
才明悼念过活虽生犹死

你喊到　变双眼皮　
你看你这么怕死
如这刻很美　
何必替未来　喘气

我看你那一扇眉
犹如蝴蝶可以飞　
留在脑内都会痛失不起

谁未能先死　活不好　
只有更可悲　
能自强争气　
亦懊悔自己　
永不给你两手挡雨霏

还是从今起　信天主　
天国重遇你
还未曾分离　
别要吓自己　
来日漫漫已是一把... 年纪

the rest were nice too. quite a few catchy ones but i cant possible list all lyrics here.

the afternoon sun is great.
although i know those working outside wldnt say the same.
but i'm indoor, and it just feels really relax.

gosh... i dun sound like a student at all.
anyway the book got me crying again. but nothing serious abt it.
ahahha.. it's just those moments that u get touched etc.

server was up!
so i played the game for a while before going out.

went suntec for the career fair.
wat a waste of time.
the sch's one was much much better.

only interesting part is that we got a police officer to chit chat with us abt his job.
some more in chinese leh!
quite funny to find police being able to joke so much.

he asked us to go look for him if we do apply into police.
hahaha.. lets see how.
i'm still waiting for the other company to call us up.
pls pls pls call...

but then if by end of next wk still no news..
i'll start to send out resume to other companies le.

time waits for no one!

today i simply refuse to do any work.
going to play game for a while then sleep.
tml go home le then start work again ba. :P

going to visit the greek exhibit this wkend!
shall go to national museum website and do some planning for the trip! :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
:) thanks :)

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was talking on the phone with mom just now.
i cant believe my ah ma told my mom to tell me to look for a bf in uni.
it's simply hilarious.
even the older generation is catching up with the trend nowadays. :D

make me sleep

2008-02-28T08:45:00.002+08:00

i usually dun blog so early in the day. (nowadays lah.. )
but i guess i sounded too not myself last nite.

seriously sleep is good.
one sleep and it shake my head and tell me i dun have to be bothered too much abt other lifes.

sorry my concern only last a nite.
but then like wat tadpole says:
"if u going to worry abt every single couple u know that isnt doing well. i'll have to get season pass to woodbridge to visit u liao"

that's quite true.
haahahaha..
thanks tadpole!
although i still think it's becoz of the sleep that i feel better. (not ur effort.. hahahah)

so next time if i'm not in a good mood,
make me go to sleep k
hahaha.. :) :P

and cousin i stand by what i've said.
but.. i'll support every decision u make!
love you cousin! :)

i thought i could brush it off.

2008-02-27T18:29:00.004+08:00

i wish i could do more to help.

u two are together mths before i was even with bryan.
although mine din last.
i hope urs does.

one party is lost
but all i could tell the other party is
work harder ba. jia you!

sometimes gers just give out the wrong signals ba?
maybe it's just not so right to be friendly to everyone.
maybe there're just actions that should be exclusively for that someone...

it saddens me to hear other ppl's stories about how one loves the other more and the other just take it for granted.
breaks my heart even though it's someone elses life.

maybe i'm scared.
scared of experiencing the same feelings.

i sincerely hope that the lost sheep will find its way.
back to the original owner of coz.
pls dun be con into someone else's garden.

i dunno why. the feeling of wanting to cry just suddenly swells up.
and it wouldnt go away.
doesnt help that jon mclaughlin is singing "so close, so close and still so far" in the background.
i just wish everyone could be happy.

this immense amount of sadness needs somewhere to go.
it doesnt help that i know both of them quite well.
but there's simply nothing much i could do.
i cant direct anyone's life.

maybe wat i can say is:
treasure that person who's already with u before the new person came along.
both went through great transition period no doubt.
but afterall it's been so long already.
give each other a chance. dun let go so easily and so fast.

i dun want to be sad.
hate getting into situations that i cant help with.

anyway,
my nose has been really sensitive recently...
picking up the perfumes that ppl put on.
but none is the same as urs.

i want to get that perfume.
and spray it in the surrounding...
so even if u're not with me,
i can pretend it's ur presence around.

a good day turned bad.
maybe i shldnt be so affected by other ppl's affair.
but i just cant help it.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
what's that perfume you wear?

10 more to the next level.

2008-02-26T19:44:00.002+08:00

another silly thing that i keep records of...

looking forward to the next level. so i can blog abt it again. :)

i guess i'll store that list of things i want to blog abt for a later time.
not quite in the mood for them now.

it's good to feel a tweeny winney busier than before.
i think it's good to get out of the room and go to lab..
the very least i'm getting things done.

the petrol hw is almost done.
i compromise and use a not so good blowout case study instead.

just finished the HR project meeting.
deadlines seem all quite close to each other.
plus one more reflection paper to be done.

target for FYP is to start writing the report
and finish 3 chapters by end of next wk.
oh.. cant forget to plot the graphs too!

engin econs i just need to complete assignment3.
and of coz revise for the quiz.

hmmm.. not too bad.
seem like i'm getting more focus.

but the only thing i dun like abt going to struc lab is that
for dunno wat reasons,
my eyes get really dry and tired by the afternoon.

that's y by that time i'll have to go walk walk.
but the good thing is that the walk clears up the mind too. :)

hope my motor start working soon.
keep me motivated!

just come to realise i've let a lot of things blown my mind away too easy recently.
i've forget one of my strengths is patience...
i shouldnt be pushing too hard for somethings.

NUS nite scenery from beside the e1 lifts mesmerises me.
i simply like the different coloured lights shimmering in the dark.
charming...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
:)

am i or am i not excited?

2008-02-26T01:12:00.006+08:00

i actually got a list of topics i want to blog about.
last nite chat got my brain churning out snippets of thoughts which i want to organise.

but then something quite significant happen today
and spoils my plan of blogging only on the topics i want to talk abt.

afterall my blog is still a place for me to note down special things that happen to me.
guess i'll still have to pen down my thoughts till i really got a chance to organise them in a proper manner.

well, the big thing that happen is that
i've received a call from the interviewer!!!
(remember last tues interview)
it seems like they're interested to take me in.
and a lot of my friends too!

i cant confirm that they're going to employ me but it's just great to receive their call~
it's almost a step forward to getting into the company!!!
seriously i got into some sort of estacsy when i chat with him.
my mind almost blanked out...

but then sembawang called today too.
to check when i'll be graduating.
not really excited by that though...

anyway, i'm just going to pray hard that the company will call back again soon!
and i hope they give good terms.
but just dun make me a no life ger if i really take up the offer k.
tweeny winney please??
oh.. but still the most important thing is.. THANK GOD for making them call me. :)

i'm a really happy ger now!
and today i manage to start doing real work.
proud of myself for working hard. :)

but then my mind did burnt out once while looking for blowout accidents.
so i went walk walk.
and when i was walking...
i took a pic of this:

hahaha... a rig in process of jack-up trial.
is that asian hercules beside it?? hmmm...
(as i'm typing this it's rainning really heavily outside. hope da shu's working safely. he did mention that he's suppose to check the operation lights(?) around this time according to his schedule.)

ok.. i know i'm being bo liao.
but wat can u expect from a brain burnt out ger?

oh.. and i had a long chit chat (or rather counselling) session with uncle zenov tonite.
wat we talked about, i'll have to take sometime to digest and organize them nicely.
but i do think that i gain and learn somethings out of it. :)
thank you uncle zenov!
anytime u want to set the payback session just let me know.. hahaha..

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i found out the singer for 他们都猜错is 陈伟...
and the process of searching made me d/l quite a no. of songs..
but oddly they're all english songs.

anyway, i saw the list of oscars winners and it made me remember this song from enchanted. :)
found it in youtube and someone made a really nice clip with the song.
want to share it with u. :)

there's quite some lines i like to tell you and things i'll like to do with you inside the video... :)
but gosh.. i think i'm turning scary again. hahaha..

P.S. I Love You Movie is lousy. :(

2008-02-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

after one round, it's back to me again.
hahahah...

cousin dun buy the book k. i can give it to u.
a really nice gentleman returned it to me.

but seriously...
i cant believe he's so gentleman!!!

eventhough we shared the same seat...
i could twist and turn without touching him!
it made me so afraid to share his jacket with him
coz it makes me almost felt like a wolf.
(and that wld make uncle zenov comment abt me being a werewolf true. :( )

felt guilty feeling all warm and comfy underneath his jacket
while he's feeling cold and occasionally sniffing.
argh... am i that scary?

actually asked him that when we were on our way back.
got an interesting reply.
hmmm.. and then i've dropped so many hints that i'm on the verge of giving up
and think i might as well just clinched onto him myself.

forget all the stuff abt gers needing to be 矜持.
i really almost just want to heck it.
it's a little frustrating...

ok... i really sound like a wolf wanting to jump on it's prey.
scary...
but... watever...

anyway, it's really nice to talk to the gentleman...
well, it always is.
but we were talking abt the issue of being eligible.
(i assume it sorts of refer to the degree of desirability too.)
and i dun quite agree with wat he said.

hmmm.. pardon me from saying this...
but i seriously dun see myself as someone eligible.
i've got serious self-esteem issues here i know.
but the thought of being desirable just doesnt cross my mind.
i dun see myself as a pretty ger
or having qualities that wld make the other gender go woo and ahhs.

i think i probably have to build up somehow on this.
to have more confidence or some sort.
hahahahah...

anyway, enough talking abt me..
let me turn back to the movie..
the book is much much better.
the movie deviates too much away from the book
and i felt too much time were spent in the beginning intro.
which i dun even quite get the purpose...

hmmm.. ok lah. there's a few good moments.
(erm.. i did tear at the mother-daughter talk part. )
but probably the moments were just not enough to save to whole show.

aiya... afterall, it was a show i wanted to watch soo much..
so maybe i shldnt be too nasty abt it.

in conclusion: dun read the book before watching it.
it'll probably be good then. :)

it's late. i'm tired.
can sleep le.
this post is probably not exactly wat i had in mind but i'm not going to write anything into the orange notebook le.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
hope tml's jack-up trial will be great for u. :)
and thank you so much for watching the show with me.
HAPPY! :)

finding excuse for everything.

2008-02-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

i was suppose to go to sch today to do my petroleum hw.
din go coz i really dun want to travel such a long way to sch.
and so i started doing bo liao things..

1. i ate a fortune cookie!

hahaha.. sound like pretty good news.

2. went shopping with my cousin.
i cant stand being alone at home.
so i asked if i can tag along for her shopping trip. :P
saw her famous colleague~ (erm... i cant say i'm impressed. just ok lah.. hahaha.. )

cousin (i supposed) wanted to shop for working clothes.
i had fun picking clothes and try to fit it on her.
purposely picked those that she dun wear.
(aiya cousin, sometimes try a different style mah.. effect could be great~ :) )
i think i watched too much america's next top model already.. hahaha..

halfway, we veer off course coz cousin wanted to search for the P.S. I love you book.
(sorry cousin.. if i haven gave it away, i would lend it to u. )
we found one at the Harris(?) but it looked as if it's a 2nd hand book.
so in the end cousin din get it.
(but i may buy the book. so maybe i can lend u then. :) )

but as she was searching the bookstore,
i went venturing on my own and found a poem book on love.
and i like this one in particular:

'The Hug'

It was your birthday, we had drunk and dined
Half of the night with our old friend
Who'd showed us in the end
To a bed I reached in one drunk stride.
Already I lay snug,
And drowsy with the wine dozed on one side.

I dozed, I slept. My sleep broke on a hug,
Suddenly, from behind,
In which the full lengths of our bodies pressed:
Your instep to my heel,
My shoulder-blades against your chest.
It was not sex, but I could feel
The whole strength of your body set,
Or braced, to mine,
And locking me to you
As if we were still twenty-two
When our grand passion had not yet
Become familial.
My quick sleep had deleted all
Of intervening time and place.
I only knew
The stay of your secure firm dry embrace.
-- Thom Gunn

had a amazing time "shopping" within the bookstore.
so many things to see and play with~ :)

but it's at the last store that i saw something really interesting.

if only i could still apply the toddler rules to me.
it'll be lovely~~~ :P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
hmmm.. aren't u going to reveal the plan? :)

haiya... wat to do?

2008-02-22T23:00:00.002+08:00

kind of dissappointed with mom today.
she went thru my bag and read my "diary"
(the one which i sometimes write my blog post on before i reach home.)
when i went down the car to help her buy her stuff.

ok... i do mind that she din respect my privacy.
but the thing i mind most is she actually let me caught her reading it.

haiz...
something that i always believe in is

要做小偷，就千万不要被抓。
as long as i dun and nv ever see wat happen, then i wont mind at all.

but anyway,
mommy brought me down to see doctor today.
so i really shouldnt complain anymore.

doctor ask me to sleep early.
so i should listen to doctor.
:P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

2008-02-21T20:05:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeee~~~~~

super happy now.

happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy

but no uncle zenov, i wont do anything for free~
not even though i'm siam-ing the fire drill~ :P

lalalalalalalala...
(uncle robson i sing nicer than u. next time u sad i sing song for u also. :P)

Career Fair

2008-02-21T18:49:00.006+08:00

decided to listen to someone who told me to be more "aggressive" in looking for a job.
and so i visited the career fair! :)

it's ppl here and there.
mpsh very hot.
a lot of companies. a lot of things to take. hahaha...

it's like going matric fair again!
wrote down names for quite a number of companies but not sure if they'll call back.
just like last time wad the CCAs did. hahaha...

anyway,
think the "best" company is BAT.
look at the big paper bag they provide us with!
just nice can fit in every this and that stuff we took from other companies. hahaha..
plus they add in quite a number of things too..
calenda, notebook, car sticker, etc etc...

and look at all the 'freebies' i collected. hahaha..

3name cards, 3 pens, 4 notepad ....

and then it's very obvious that NOV and National Heritage Board went to the same company to make their gifts.

think this career fair is really not bad.
lots of friendly ppl to talk to. (even though i'm not very sure wat to ask them lah.)
there's so many different companies that i may consider too.
thinking of sending application to be a pilot! hahaha..
can't list all out here. too many le. so many companies have something that interest me.
even the tobacco one...

oh oh oh!!! i even saw my sec 1 form teacher at the fair!!!!
she changed job and become HR for a*star
SHE STILL LOOK VERY YOUNG!!!
even uncle robson commented that she look more like my classmate than teacher.
so unbelievable...

went NTUC with uncle robson after the fair.
for once uncle robson display his gentlemanly side... hahaha...
helped me carry the paper bag and accompany me wait for the shuttle bus.
wahahahaha... it's so rare loh..
but must compliment uncle robson for that!
good good job!

anyway, saw another random thing that make me happy today.
uncle robson treated me to this bubble tea and on the cover it says:
魔羯座的爱情速配是处女座~

hahaha.. attempted to take a pic of the cover
but din get a clear one. :P

ok.. i'm being bo liao.
but want to make up for the depressing post last nite. :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
just realise today is the last day of CNY and the chinese valentine's day, so...
东方情人节快乐！:)

2008-02-20T22:22:00.003+08:00

felt a little upset today.
felt that i've lost a buddy.
the first fren to send me home.
the first fren to drag me out when i was feeling miserable from my first breakup.
it's funny how we weren't even that close but he still can tell when i'm not in a good mood.
but maybe i just mis-understood him today...

and you! yes 'you'!
why must there be so many ppl that carries your影子walking around?
心情不好时，还看见那么多的‘你’，心情更好不到哪里去。
好想sms你，向你申诉现在的坏心情。
可是你可能不会喜欢这样烦人的女生吧？

每次都有很多话想更你讲。
开心、不开心，无聊、有趣的。。。
不过想想自己真是烦人，就又都吞进肚子里去了。

今晚的风真的好冷。
偏偏我还得回家，就为了一顿我吃不到的晚餐。
心情真的是糟透了。
现在疯狂的想你！

i may be changing to wordpress soon.
till i transfer all my post over...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

So does girl really have an advantage over guys?

2008-02-19T13:55:00.004+08:00

woke up super early today to prepare for the INTERVIEW.

really didnt want to wake up at all coz the weather is just so great for sleeping.
(ok fine.. i'm a lazy pig)

reached the place really early.
so uncle robson being a super nice guy, accompanied me to eat breakfast. :)
but we're still too early.. hahaha..
had to wait at the reception before the secretary of our interviewer brought us over to the office.

had to do this 10qns quiz before the interview.
ok... seriously, i'm not prepared for it.
hahaha.. i have forgotten all abt the conservation of moment and forces.
gosh.. that's really bad...
how i managed to scrape a pass from the quiz i dunno too...
hahaha.. but i did. :P

well, i know i haven got anything to brag abt for my results.
hahaha.. when he was going thru them and asking me what's my strength...
i can only smile and erm...
but well, that's not going to stop me from being enthusiastic over this job. :)
coz when he was showing me the pictures, i just went totally wow...

this interview is basically another unusual interview.
it's generally he talking and i listen.
hahaha.. but maybe i do have some special qualities than can make ppl keep on talking.
uncle robson says i was in there for a whole HOUR!!!
(i din realise it was so long...)

hahaha.. so yeah.. uncle 杀手 is me!
(eh.. but i rather attracts younger ones. can?? hahaha.. )

and then,
if the amt of time taken for the interview is directly proportional to the chances of being employed,
I'LL BE SUPER HAPPY!
:P

hmmm.. the interviewer did talked abt other things.
in fact there's so many things he said.
i got to learn quite some stuff from him too. :)
so even if i din get picked, at least i gain something from the interview!

but God~~~ please please please let me be selected k? :)

i'm just simply excited over this job.

PICK ME!
hahahah...

he did also express the concern abt girls taking up this job.
i cant help but agree there's quite a fair bit of logistic contrain.
but he also did say that girls do have advantage in some ways!
hahaha.. hope so lah..

if that's the case, add me into ur list of employees k? :P

eh.. but i do think i was a bit too 随便 for the interview.
see lah... why did they make it casual interview???
i almost couldnt control myself and let singlish slip out.. :P
and i think i sound a bit rude when i asked when we'll know the results.
but... dun hold it against me ok??
i'm sorry!

oh ya! i muz add~
i hope they take in more ppl.
so i'll have company if i do get to work there! hee.. :)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
工作辛苦了！要加油哦！:)

i can see the moon from my window...

2008-02-18T19:07:00.004+08:00

it took less than 10min for the moon to raise up from my window.
but it looked really pretty... :)

was staring at my msn pic.
realise i've got really big hand.
quite long actually.
but i like! hahaha.. i think my hand in the pic looks pretty.
almost girly... :P

interview tml.
spent the day preparing.
erm.. actually not lah. manage to complete other task too.
happy!
hahaha...

think i had my share of exercising for the wk le.
walked quite a fair bit today.
lab to archi auntie. back lab then to another lab.
lab to yih then back lab.
dinner at science then walked back to room.
so yup! my legs are aching. :P
hahaha.. just kidding. quite happy to be walking actually.
thanks uncle zenov for walking with me~
hahaha.. though he's not exactly willing. :P

anyway, learnt some stuff from HR class today.
hmmm.. let me get my notes...

okie dooky..
here is goes:
if we continuously under-perform, we cannot sustain (long term) in a role.

well.. it goes with the previous lectures theory that
we need recognition from others.
and as we're highly defensive and always want to protect ourselves,
we cannot sustain in a role that we kept under performing.
under performing open us to humiliations and etc. (things that we dun want to experience)

ok.. not sure if u ppl will get my point,
but then i felt that i can relate to it lah.

i mean, during the class the teacher did mention that while trying to sustain this role,
we'll have to invest our resources into it.
resources could be time, money, emotions, energy etc.
so if we kept on putting in our resources,
i felt that there'll be a day the resources runs dry.
and that's why in long term things will not work out.

it will just reach a point that we give up.
or we seek other audiences that could give us the support that we need.
human are such self centered beings isnt it?

and then between the 2 types of support we can gain from the role we play,
i think i can say i hunger more for extrinsic rewards than intrinsic gratification.
not exactly someone with very high self esteem so not much internal power to satisfy myself lah.
that's why i feed on others positive comments about me.
hahaha.. but nowadays not so easy to get ppl say nice things abt you lah. :P

it's funny how everytime i talked abt serious things,
i'll want to turn it into something not so serious with all the 'hahaha's and smiley faces. or sometimes i'll just give weird answers to questions.
is it that i'm a joker in nature?

but maybe it's becoz when i talk about serious things,
i've tendency to turn it to a very dark side and i hate to affect ppl with such things?
my wish is for everyone to be happy.
even though it may be difficult..

see see see.. i've just did it again.
i try to be serious and it goes negative.

guess i'll just stick to my smiley faces and hahaha then..
let everyone be in good mood. :)

anyway, was missing someone really terribly today in lab.
hahaha... was filling up the application form for the interview and the feeling came.
hahaha... poor uncle zenov had to bear with my moody mood and hear me mumble nonsense...
paiseh lah! hahaha.. see lah.. who asked u borrow staple from me? so u have to tahan all this nonsense..
but at least i helped u find house episodes! hee... :P

i'm too excited for tml's interview!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

house visits!

2008-02-17T16:50:00.002+08:00

Wee~ lau dou and me visited each other house for new year yesterday!

hahaha.. din get to go last year so was especially happy to visit her ytd.
anyway, her mom was really nice to me! hee.. as usual. =P

lau dou showed me her japan pics and....
I ALSO WANT TO GO DISNEYLAND!!!
hahaha..

and her pics also made me super duper crave for jap food!
erm.. actually just salmon sashimi lah.. hee

just nice i meeting weijun at bugis to watch a bellydance performance
and lau dou meeting her friends there too!
so we went sakae sushi for dinner~ =P

was almost late for the performance...
it's not the same as i imagine lah.
but the plot was quite funny. hahaha..
the ending brazilian dance was really nice and i like their costume! =)
weyling looked gorgeous!!!
erm.. but i din get to take photo with her lah.

oh.. and they used one of my fav. bollywood song for one of their dance!!!
Bole Chudiyan from Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham.
hee.. one of my fav. bollywood movie too!
Shahrukh Khan is so handsome! hahahaha.. =)

performance ended really early around 8.
so went mos to drink with weijun.
hahahaha.. took quite a few crazy pics but lazy to upload lah.
and weijun is so sweet! gave me a present for friendship day! hahaha..
we both no 情人 so vday is friendship day.
(=P feels guilty for not getting her anything. )

anyway, had a great time chatting with lau dou and wei jun.
was chatting with lau dou about our secret craving...
her's promise, mine's commitment.
hahaha.. she wants ppl to throw themselves in
but i want to throw myself in.
so different in thinking.

hahaha.. but i get her point totally.
think most ppl want the same thing.
but i cant bring myself to want it.
hahaha.. maybe like lau dou kept saying,
我太为别人着想了.

well, start thinking for ur own good ger!
try lah hor.. hahahah..

also talked abt how we kept thinking abt things
and then the more we think the more qns came out.
maybe we shld just stop thinking too much
and start with actions.

haiya.
it's difficult to back track and blog abt previous days events.
and today home's internet cmi.
couldnt connect.
waited till i'm back in sch before i could continue.

anyway, watched 太王四神记the whole day with mom.
oh gosh oh gosh. it's too addictive!
tried to break away from it twice.
but got attracted back to the tv when i went back to take some stuff.
even mommy who usually hates to watch fantasy dominated shows was hooked!
we couldnt even stop watching while eating dinner.

luckily i really had to come back to sch.
so we stopped!

ok.. that's really bad.
i planned things to do but din do.
had to catch up during the wk then. =P

and oh no!!!!!
i'm hooked on the hindi song!
cant stop repeating.
it's just nice nice nice.. hahaha..

obviously watching too much tv is bad too.
i think my head is spinning.
time for bed!
early class tml.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

understanding role in family.

2008-02-15T23:36:00.003+08:00

i think i can turn that into a module already.

i haven been studying my family behaviour for a quite some time and came to this conclusion:

i am the best object at home to let out all fraustration.
my room is transforming into common room.

i suppose my character of keeping quiet when ppl is talking is the main reason.
and that my room's door is always open, play a part too.

honestly, i dun like my room to become the common room.
it is afterall, MY ROOM!
it's a loss of private space... and ppl just dun get it when i tell them to get out.

sometimes it's just plain irritating.
to be the object which everyone come and talk to.
and even more irritating is that what they tell u, were meant for someone else.
bcoz they dun want the risk of being talked back,
they talk to me.

just plain plain plain weird.

anyway, i'm just 发发牢骚...
maybe suddenly too many ppl talking to me after i got home, scares me.
hahaha.. and maybe it's becoz i just watch a lousy movie.

ah long pte ltd is seriously lousy.
to think that i was sceptical to wat critics says.
there's no plot at all.
no much laughing points.
and a real bad twist in the end!
.....

but anyway, one good thing today is that i heard a really nice voice.
she's called 王若琳 ( joanna wang).
i really love her voice. 低沉又带磁性.
the first time i heard i thought it's tanya chua.
but then after hearing a few more times, it just felt different.

i especially like 因为我爱你 by her.
it's the 片尾曲for 我在垦丁天气晴...
(oh.. it's a nice show. with occasional 佳句)

anyway, i cant find the source of the song anywhere.. =(
maybe it's too new.
i'll wait a few more wks and see how.
if i really cant d/l anywhere. maybe i'll just get her album! =P

oh! going for a interview on tuesday.
getting pretty excited over it.
time to do some serious research on the company i guess.
hmpf! dun say i not agressive with my job hunting k. =P
hahahaha..

haiz.
i dislike beating around the bush.
dunno y i suddenly want to type that. but it just came into mind.
time for bed.
good nite world.

我在垦丁天气晴makes me want to read 小王子again.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
cant wait to watch the movie.
hahaha.. i'm quite a movie addict.

dun ask me wat happen. i dunno myself too.

2008-02-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

finally going to get a good nite sleep~

thank you everyone who had been really supportive.
(esp. ppl who came to talk to me or left a msg)

dun keep saying i'm brave or anything. (i'll blushed)
it's just the first time i'm following my gut feeling totally.

if u want something really badly,
just give it a try at least?

whether things go well or not,
at least u know u made an effort rite?

i din want to give up without trying.
so that's what i did.

anyway, i was reading the postsecrete forum and i came across this quote:

Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less. ~Julins Gordon

cant help but agree with it.

cheers everyone~

I'm only just a girl, standing in front a boy, asking him to love her...

2008-02-13T20:53:00.009+08:00

quote from Notting Hill

Dear Da Shu,

I dunno when u'll be reading this, and how u'll react.
and I've thought of so many ways to say this to u, but nothing seems good.
So i'm just going to try my best.

I've fallen for u. This, i believe u knew for a long time.
and Well, if u're going to ask me what make me fall for u,
i guess this card sort of summarise it all. =)

(not sure if u can see the words. just click on it if u need a larger pic. )

I dunno if u get this kind of 'letter' often.
But what i do know is,
if i dun write it now, i probably wont find the courage to write it ever again.

Anyway, u said this year is going to be a year of change for me.
I couldn't agree more.
But i'll love to have u with me going through all the changes.
Cause if there's anyone who could remind me to keep my good qualities and change the bad ones,
it's you.
this pic from postsecret says it all. =)

And u once asked me if i'll snatch another girl's boyfriend.
After thinking really hard over it, i've finally made a difficult decision.
If it's for u, i will.
So if u have a girlfriend, tell me.
I'll condition my heart and mind to do it.

Anyway, I'm sorry we couldn't talked about this face to face.
I mean i would love to tell u in person all the things i've thought about.
But we just hardly meet up. And when we do, we had so little time.

Anyway, here comes the important question
that i've always being wanting to pop.

I hope i din scare u by being so bold. I'm not sure how guys react to such things also.
But do give me a reply. I really dun like things hanging in the air.

Love,
Xianhui =)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
I want to watch P.S. I Love You with u. can?

p.s.s.writing all this out certainly looked like an suicide attempt.
but i read somewhere that when people write love letters, they are certainly almost insane.
i think i am. coz the heart felt like it's being hang up really high.
kind of like during a rollercoaster ride, when u're at the highest point. just before it drop down real fast.

p.s.s.s. i wanted to write this in a funny manner but i guess my funny genes went on strike and i couldnt find any. i thought of using the plycard method from love actually, but my A4 drawing block got borrowed by my fren coz i scribbled ytd notes in it. but anyway my phone camera seem rather blur recently so i dun think i can take real nice pictures also. So had to do some last min picture creating with fireworks.

p.s.s.s.s. i turning long winded. =P

just being bo liao...

2008-02-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

ok... i know i should be sleeping to cure my head.
but i itchyhand.

i went to browse thru my previous blogs.
din knew i kept so much records.
from jc till now.

much change.
from tone, topics, etc.

lots of similar post too.
does it proves that certain things repeats?

just realised i wrote quite a fair bit abt xqrj
during my time in the committee.
but din exactly point it out.
hahaha.. guess it was too sensitive maybe?

when ppl like me, review my life like that. (reading past blogs)
what purpose exactly do they want to achieve?

my head is seriously killing me.
time for bed~
good nite everybody.
miss u.

it's the usual tues lec post.

2008-02-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

Prof Andrew Palmer is the BEST!
hahaha..

ok.. i sound like i'm being a suck up.
but i simply loves his lectures...

the one and only lecturer that can make me pay attention
even though my head is pounding like mad and it felt as though i'll faint.

for the record,
i have not slept in any one of his lectures!

even though i was lost once or twice today
when my head is spinning and trying to scribble down notes.
but thank God i've got Mr Kiat Hui sitting beside me.

anything dunno, just ask!
that's what classmates are for~ =P

anyway,
uncle zenov was very nice today and ask me if i want to buy a notebook cool pad.
coz buy 2 got discount.
i'm so glad i took the offer!

look! so pretty! and the fan is so quiet!
the one i had at home really cannot compare... tsktsktsk...

so i guess EE students are really good with all these electronic stuff...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

好羡慕哦。。。

2008-02-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

ok... i've been trying very hard to keep myself from thinking about Vday.
but there's continuously reminders from people all around.

kind of upseting...
wished someone will asked me out.
but then not going to keep my hopes up.

hahaha.. coz like uncle robson say:
"it's thursday leh."
so if want to ask, cant be dragging it too late right?

dun want to be the one who always ask ppl out.
hahaha.. think lau dou will be able to connect with me on this.
after all we're brought up with traditional values that gers should be more 矜持isnt it?

ok... just want to crap a little.
afterall this post is inspired by certain events that happened today.

anyway, i still wished all my attached friends:
Have a Happy Valentine's Day!
(kind of early but i saving that day's post for something else... hahahah.. )
as for those not attached friends.. (not a lot left le..)
let's all 加油 ba! Good things will happen. =)

CHeers!

Song of the day...

2008-02-11T17:03:00.000+08:00

能不能勇敢说爱

世界太罗嗦能不能够放空失踪
是谁在我的背后说什麼
好像又没说
一颗心总被你悬在半空中难受
可是你又迟迟不说爱我

没有你我发现自已无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观眾
我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don't really know
需要你的时候
感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱 yeah...

关掉你的眼睛你的鼻和口 Say no
如果你也能放下所有
请你点点头
我的心只為你一个人跳动心痛
可你还能為我改变什麼

没有你我发现自已无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观眾
我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don't really know
需要你的时候
感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱 yeah...

也许到最后你还是要走
没有你我发现自已无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观眾
我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don't really know
需要你的时候
感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱 yeah...

this's my song of the day coz it's the only song i've heard today.
caught it when i was reading shuyang's blog... (erm.. the female one.. )
it's not exactly the very very nice kind of song. but it just caught my ears...

anyway, ger ger i think i can connect so much with ur posts.. hahaha..
esp the one abt the values that were instilled in us since young...
and of coz i love dr house too! hahaha..
but i muz say he do care about his patient even though he's not that willing for patient-doctor interaction lah...
(he's nicer in the newer seasons i felt.. =P)

anyway, i am super duper unhappy about that stupid truck that woke me up early in the morning today with all the noise that it's producing!
i'm seriously lack of sleep thru this new year break. probably not a day i slept before 2am.
and there's class today so i seriously needed to catch up on the sleep so that i wont fall asleep in class.
but the stupid truck came around 5am?? and i simply cant fall back asleep with all the noise!
=(
but thank God. teacher wasnt feeling well today so class ended at 10plus.
came back and continue sleeping.
feels better now~

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

wat should i be feeling?

2008-02-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

how do ppl get over the depressing things that their parents told them?

i went to watched cj7.
i suppose it must be really funny for some of the ppl in the theatre.
coz they were laughing really loudly.

but i end up tearing at the part when the child went home after knowing dad is dead.
and at that moment i actually thanked God that i din tell mom not to care about me anymore.
it's just a weird feeling.

on one hand i wish mom will just let me make my own decisions.
on the other i knew i should be listening to her cause she's almost always right.

but somehow, i dont mind making mistakes.
how could i learn if i dun fall once or twice?

but then if listening to my mom will stop me from making mistakes,
and dun let me hurt myself,
am i suppose to listen then?

i cant really decide.
but the thing that i know is,
this time i'll do as i wish.
even if it does hurt, i accept it willingly.
i only hope its impact wont be too strong.

anyway, i've watched 2 out of the 3 new year shows...
shall find a day to complete the series. haahaha..

but of coz the most most most look forward to movie of the year is still...
P.S I LOVE YOU!
Gosh... i was sooooooooooooooooooooo jealous when liyan told me she watched it already...
i also want to watch!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

恭贺新禧！

2008-02-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

you must have had magic!
cause a message from you,
brightens up my day and put pink on my face. =)
it's a pity however, that i hear from you so rarely...

新年快乐！
from the super duper red me.
hahaha...

took quite a number of pics today at home.
will upload them when i find the time. =)

First day of Chinese new year!
not exactly as eventful as i thought it would be,
but not really that bad either.

only found out today that:
we're still not going to 拜年 this year...
so it's just gathering at grandma's place like last year.

well, din get too many angbao as a result.
but considering the number of ppl i got to see,
i'll say i'm really satisfied~ =)
(so maybe it's true that red is my 招财colour this year)

since there's nothing much to do.
me and cousin went to watch movie!!!
hahaha.. as it's the new year period,
of coz we must catch something funny and brainless and will make us feel happy!

we dont exactly have much choices coz we went to yishun gv.
so it's just the major 3 贺岁电影...
and 2 of them were selling out fast.
so... we ended up with 功夫灌篮.

we seriously dun have any expectation for the show.
the movie sounds really 'tut' and even the movie poster looks 'tut' too!
but it actually wasnt that bad at all lah.
it din fall below our expectation. (not that we have much)
and we actually tot that it was quite nice lah...

ok.. so i'm looking forward to watching the other 2 brainless flicks.
hahaha... it's the new year! let's all be merry and not use our brains too much.. =P

that's sorts of concluded my day.
i think i reallly need to sleep le...
stay up too late last nite...
need to make up for it. especially after this long long day.

let's all be happy! =)

i still am feeling happy. =)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

i cant remember everything. but 大家新年快乐！

2008-02-06T12:27:00.000+08:00

just realise i only do my reflections before chinese new year.
does that make me more chinese???

anyway, i dunno how to begin but maybe just random thoughts here and there.

在帮忙抹家具的时候，想：
when i'm young i'm so eagar to please the people around me.
especially the adults.
i'll do all the things that would make them happy.
so i mop the floor, wash the basins, wipe the furnitures... all very eagerly.

but now, i dun really feel like pleasing anyone just like that.
i want to focus more on me me me and me...
hahaha.. sound really self centered..
but just thinking...

and i seriously hate the double loop thinking which the HR teached us.
because then i'll have to think over the issue and think for others.
i dun want to.
now that's the part the teacher din teach us.

在抹钢琴的时候，想：
maybe it time that i re-pick up piano again.
i dun use to think about it this way but i think that it's really quite wasteful last time to have stopped half way.
if i've continued, probably i could entertain myself with it more.

在很费力的要把瓶盖转开的时候，想：
it would be really nice to have a man around.
there're just things which women cant do on their own.
i have to admit it. i cant be superwoman and do everything on my own.
that's a insane thought.
we all need someone.

在走来走去的时候，想：
is it that people become more stupid when they're older?
why did i kept on feeling that
now that i'm older, i know less and less things.
i'm almost on the verge of thinking i know nothing.
somehow, other people are still as smart, but i'm just not achieving anymore.
that's a big contrast to last time when i'm younger.
i used to think i know a lot of things.
i'm smarter and i can do lots of stuff..
not anymore. i dun think that way anymore..
why?

在吃团圆饭、捞鱼生的时候，想：
do i still need to wish for 学业进步？
well of coz i still got my last sem. but this kind of things is for the whole year isnt it?
half a year left.. well technically just a few months.
i'll probably have to work harder now.
but the fact that even though i always tell myself this and that.
do i really practise them?
i dunno.
but anyway, i still have to say:
work hard ger! jia you jia you jia you!

well.. there's still pieces of thoughts here and there...
cant quite string them together now.
so i'll just leave as that ba.
watever it is. i hope for a great year ahead. =)

to everybody:
新年快乐！恭喜发财！=)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
have a great new year!

i missed the rigs...

2008-02-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

ok.. i know i'm naggy.
3posts in a day..

but i really really have to blog abt this...
i had a great lecture just now! hahaha..

we got an invited lecturer from transocean..
and he gave us a big overview of the drilling process.
"from reservoir to oil"

and he talked quite a fair bit on drilling rigs and stuff..

I MISSED GOING ONBOARD OF THE RIG SOOOO MUCH!

gosh.. seeing all the pictures and listening to all the things he talked about.
i really wish i could board a rig again.

all the derrick, drill floor, driller cabin, control room, mud pumps, pipes, drilling equipments..

i totally missed it!
i sooo wished the next time i'll get the chance to work with rigs again..

it's really a great lecture.. not that i learned alot but it just feels nice to hear about rigs..
and the fact that i saw the rigs at the yard when the class ended. it just totally melts my heart.
the familar feeling...

anyway, i've been giving wat yishan told me great thoughts..
but i've come to the conclusion that i'm unable to do wat she did.

sorry darling..
i wish i'm as daring as u but really...
it's just not me.
guess i'll just have to take it slow and see how things go ba.

but love you sweetie! u're simply the best person to talk to regarding all these stuff..
hahaha.. but seem like i've lots of things with u now that u could blackmail me with already.. =P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

bored...

2008-02-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

it's boring staying in the room waiting for 6pm lecture.

i'm bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored.

cant wait for new year to come!
this year God please bless me with lot and lots of ang baos!

hmmm... 5 whole days of holidays!
wat can i do with it???

*yawnz*
still bored.

watching charmed season 1...
it's such a long ago show already.
but it's still one of my fav! =) especially the ones with Prue in it..
every wednesday nite.. i'll sit in front of the tv waiting...

ok... too much tv is bad.
so i shall go take a nap.
hahaha.. i'm turning into such a piggy.. .

drinking is still not good lah...

2008-02-05T09:35:00.000+08:00

gosh... i knew i advocate the negative effects of drinking last wk...

but i went drinking last nite again!
(drinking a bit too regularly recently it seems... )

so maybe i should quote one of the lines i heard from korean drama:
喝酒就是要喝醉的嘛！

sorry cousin!
din ask u along coz it was an in prompt to decision..
zenov and me accompanied uncle robson to buy his new year jeans and he suggested drinking at the usual place.
and so we went~
hahaha...

bcoz new year is coming... so i decided to challenge my drinking limit!
(ok.. that was so soo sooo wrong... )
ordered a 0.5 instead of the usual 0.3
waulau... it seem like an never ending drink lah!
usually quite easily the cup will be empty.. but this one.. haiyo..
i felt like i've reached my limit and there's still like around 3inches left...

but bcoz it taste nice (hahaha.. quite sweet) and i dun feel like wasting it...
i went on to finish it up with one gulp!

ok... that was a terrible decision.
hahaha.. almost immediately i went to the toilet to puke it all out.
i guess i freaked the guys out when i suddenly left my seat...
and i kept complaining its cold when i came back...
but it's true k! i've no idea why but i kept shivering...

it's funny listening to the guys discuss how to get me back if i really got immobile..
hey! i was feeling tipsy but not to that extend of not being able to walk lah k...

hahaha.. when we came out of the bar..
both uncle robson and zenov got such pinkish face!
thank God i still look normal... =)

actually wanted to take cab back to sch one... but then uncle robson is so "giam"!
haiyo...
so end up taking bus back... =(

but anyway, thanks uncle zenov!
for sending me back to my blk's lift..
hahaha.. he say he was afraid that i may faint in the dark alley if i walk back alone.
(aiyo... i not so weak lah... if i really cannot make it, i will definitely say! hahaha.. )

anyway, for the first time.... (after i drank...)
i came back into my room. wash up. and...
FALL ASLEEP!
(it was only 10plus then.... )

hahaha... but i got set alarm clock to try wake up early today!
but then weather recently is too good...
so i 赖床 for more than an hour before i truly wake up... =P

so another conclusion:
drinking is still not good. and dun anyhow change habit...

but like wat uncle robson say... it was a crazy nite.. ahahhahaahhaa...
we were extremely crappy lah...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i dreamt of u last nite!
but cant remember wat happen in the dream liao.. hahahah..

i should be more devil-ish...

2008-02-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

it's fun discussing restricted issues with my gf.

she's teaching me how to be devil-ish!
not that i dunno how..
hahaha.. but i timid lah!

it's no doubt we belong to the same "family"
we possess qualities so similar!

lets hope i become more daring~
to tempt!

*i dunno what i'm talking about already.. hahaha.. *

$80/$20

2008-02-04T13:41:00.000+08:00

it's not wise to eat before sleeping.
stomach will feel weird weird and keeps me from sleeping...

and since i wasnt able to fall asleep so easily.
my brain started thinking
about the $80 car park fee or the $20 fine for losing the parking ticket.

obviously, comparing the 2...
i'll rather say i lost the parking ticket and pay just $20.

BUT...
will i be so smart to realise i can pay less by claiming a lost ticket?

seriously if no one reminds me about it,
i will dumb dumb pay $80.
Yes. i'm that dumb.

But why am i thinking so much about it??
Nowadays carparks use CASHCARD.
not so easy to cheat le, isnt it?

AND,
there's no way i'll let my carpark fee accumulate to $80.
I AM NIAO...
hahahaha...
and i probably wont own a car so soon... so why worry?? =P

obviously when u're going to sleep, the brain doesnt want to work too much.
so that's all i thought about.

hmmm... i just realise i've got quite a few people, who will ask me to give examples to support wat i say, around me.
oddly, although it's always good to have examples to back up what you say,
i dun work this way.
no doubt if given the time to think and plan, i will have examples!
but to come out with examples within an instant...
I JUST CANT LAH.
i'm simply not so quick thinking.. as much as i wish to be... =(

anyway,
chinese new year is coming le!
lot's of 贺岁片coming out! hohoho...
it's the time of the year to watch brainless flicks and be merry! =)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i listened to both songs u talked about le.
I like Crying in the party.
but the other one i dun think it's very nice. (not even radio friendly like you said.. =P)
but then again, i could be biased. hahaha...

I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES! ARGH...

2008-02-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

with you hair so long... i almost cannot control the urge to mess it up!
so i end up messing other people's hair...

Weeee~~~
Super happy tonite! hahaha..

first year that i'm not involved in any ticket sales... hahaha...

anyway,
it muz be the 老王卖瓜心态...
i still think the 7th XQRJ is the BEST!!!

this year's really messed up quite a bit...
the hosts were terrible!
there's so many technical error...
tix sales don't look so good. (first floor wasnt even full..)
and the worst of all,
the opening is crap!

seriously i'm pretty disappointed.
it's the 10th anniversary leh!
how could the opening be just like that???
the magician wasnt even pro...
to think that our year we had fire flew down to light up the ceremony...

and then the hosts ah...
did the committee got them last minute?
they obviously wasnt sure wat they're talking abt, so:
one kept looking at the script (which wasnt so bad compared to her partner)
the other started talking crap and is CMI! (he probably think that his 临场反应 is excellent. but he's plain rude to the GOH, judges, participants and even the audience.. )

ok.. there's thousand and one more things i can scrutinize.
but it's bo liao coz this yr xqrj already passed.
just hope that next yr will be better ba..

k lah.. at least one good thing happened. =P
i get to watch it with da shu.. =)

it's lovely spending time together...
but somehow i think i should let my 色狼本性out a little more...
i'm too 拘谨with him le... hahaha...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
i got lots of free time... =P

if gor din mention wat he saw on tv...

2008-02-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Now then i know mommy had always been sympathizing with bryan.

哼！真是吃里爬外的东西！
hahaha.. just kidding..

but i thought mom will always side their own children?
why my mommy like that??

finally now she got rid of the feeling and understand that i din 对不起任何人...
=)

it's funny how her attitude changes 180deg towards someone.
so thanks to gor! hahaha...

tml's xqrj le!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

Spring Clean!

2008-02-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

i like the way you sprinkle your emoticons in your replies. it makes you seem almost playful.

i is good!
hahaha.. finally started on my spring cleaning and tidy up my table.. =)
ok.. this doest look really really neat neat but it's really much much better than the state it was in before... forgot to take picture so can before and after contrast.. hahahaha..

saw this photo in the stack and decided to display it... my 2 bestest frens together with me in thailand... =)
took this in the train cabin.. hahaha.. i wonder who was the one who took it for us.. =)
missed the good old days...

hahaha.. the lonely boi boi keychain was in front of the photo becoz i tot it look nice there..
i'm using the ger ger keychain now.. hmmm... maybe next time can give the boi boi keychain away... if not quite wasteful also..

anyway, was looking through a lot of the things that i've kept... letters and stuff from frenz...
realise that a lot of things that we wrote down before means nothing in the future. we may have plans and dream for lots of things but if we're unable to sustain, they just become empty words..

but of coz it's still interesting to dug the letters out sometimes to 回味那一段青涩时期...

2nd round of clean up tml..
hope this time i'll be able to maintain the neatness long enough~ hahahah..

and then, uncle robson! the personality talk does work loh...

i thought i might as well step out of my comfort zone a little and try out the solution methods in resolving conflicts between different personality types..
and i patched up with my mom!
hahaha.. not that if i dun use it then i'll continue the cold war with my mom lah..
but then i took the chance to speak up (instead of the usual don't), and used the personality book i borrowed from biz library to explain to my mom wat really went wrong. and how we could work out some of our differences.
we were able to identify ourselves more and both give in a little. and the results were great!
hahaha.. we had a real fun day shopping for new year stuff and clean up the house.

so in conclusion: personality is a powerful tool!
hahaha..

ok.. i'm being crappy here.. my point was just i thought it was useful.
but i end up relating the story machiam like some self help book.. hahahaha.. =P

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

2008-01-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

there's so many things i'll like to share with you. each with their little reasons attached.
but i can't, cause neither am i yours nor you are mine... yet?

ok... i am big suaku!
today is the first time i step into biz library!!! hahahaha...
we almost got lost trying to find the way to the entrance...
so moral of the story:
uncle robson go find a biz gf!
erm.. or else see which fac library u want to go, then find that fac gf!

research for HR project was funny...
realise ppl dun talk inside library
and we tried so hard to keep our volume down while settling which topics to keep.

argh.... just pissed mom off..
lost my mood to blog le... =(

it's totally a personality problem.
i cant make her see my point and i dun wish to accomodate her also.

well done.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

boring day.

2008-01-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

很想抱你亲你，但是你不在身边，所以不能。

finally wore this tshirt!
bought in yr 1 but it got kept till dunno where...

anyway, din wore it today lah..
wore on monday but just remember to upload the pic now.. hahahaha..

HR taught on monday is really very useful!
one of the theory says: ur emotions is linked to ur actions.
so if u keep a smiley face, u will generally feel happy.

so applying it to my tshirt,
if i wear this tshirt that say "i feel good" ,
i will feel good!

ok.. that's crappy. but today was a boring day...
lecture was sooooooo slow...
hahaha.. but the good thing is that i sat with edina.
whenever i'm bored, i'll complain to her.. hahaha..
and she'll keep me entertained.. =P
erm... k lah.. shld be we kept each other entertained! hahahaha...

lucky i'm not taking the floating structure module... hahaha
think i'll be bored to death there.. =P
sorry kiat hui!
hahaha... he spent the whole dinner yesterday trying to tell me how good that module is...
but i'm simply not into it lah.. felt that i'm a bit rude coz i wasnt paying my full attention to wat he's talking... but i really cant help it!

eh.. i also dunno why i'm saying all this but then uncle robson asked me to write long long long blog post...
but i really nothing to write le...

hahahah...
i'm such a boring person...

opps.. i'm not suppose to say that too often.. if not i'll condition my mind to think i'm really boring... hahahaha... another HR concept...

seriously, i think that HR lesson was the one most important and most impactful lesson i ever attended in the whole uni life.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

Amazing!

2008-01-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

woo~~~ look how cool my prof is...
he actually drew the whole world map out and explained to us the history of oil and gas exploration...
好神奇！

i'm in love with this module!~

but sadly i got to say:

ALCOHOL REALLY MESS UP THE HEAD!

think i would have enjoyed this lesson more if my head wasnt that heavy.
drank too much last nite... think i had 5 refills?? think i was really treating the drink as plain water.. =P (but i'm super thirsty!)

and then i think i am super weird!
ppl get drunk will sleep rite? i end up being super awake!
dunno why din want to sleep and ended up reading i周刊...
slept very late and end up waking up with a heavy head...

so conclusion: it's no good to drink!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
what's that song that u like???

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ROBSON!

2008-01-29T11:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. uncle robson u not old yet... u're merely a 12 and a 13 yrs old add together!
so u're still a kid lah! dun worry too much of the "quarterly" or "one third" life crisis... u're still far from it!
hmmm.. let see wat else i can write...
hope ur FYP get A! quick quick find a job u like! pass ur IPPT then no need go RT!
oh!!! and wish u dun need wait too long for a "true love's kiss"!!! hahahaha...

aiya, but i think the most important thing is still BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY!

CHEERS!

today...

2008-01-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

weird stomach recently.. wonder wat's wrong...

but anyway, had a great family day today..
hahaha.. went taka to buy new yr goodies and then it's off to buy my new year clothes!
=P lucky gor loves to be my fashion advisor~ if not i'm sure he will sure complain no stop abt shopping so long..

so yup.. finally settled and bought a super red dress!
hahaha.. hopefully it will make appearance more than once... =P
afterall gor finally nod his head when he saw me wear it... hahahaha...

on the way home, daddy and mommy had a great time laughing while trying to teach me cantonese.
ya... i gei kiang started asking them how to say some phases..
but somehow i suspect that they tried to teach me the wrong phase...
hmmm... so suspicious from the way they laughed when i learn how to speak loh...
hahahha... but anyway, it's fun for me also lah... =P

hmmm... had some weird tots today on the way to the shopping mall.
but it doesnt really link with the happy stuff on top so i'll blog abt it next time ba...
hopefully i'll remember it.

oh! and i just found out that some ppl read my blog.. so,
HI LAURA! hahaha...

wonder whoelse comes here... leave a note or something leh!
so i can say hi too.. hahaha...
ok.. i just plain crappy today.. lalalala...
and the ktv mood is still there... argh....
need to sing need to sing need to sing....

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

Wee~~~ meet up with liyan today! =)

2008-01-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

but lau dou make me worry early in the morning lah!

we were suppose to meet at 10.. almost tot i'll be late coz i only left my hse at 9.
but she din reply when i msg her... so i already had a "bad feeling"...
waited 20min and decided to call her hse... ( i'm impressed with myself.. hahaha.. i can still remember her hse no. =P)
her mom told me she's bathing... and soooo....
as expected...
she reached at 1120.....

hahahaha... but the good thing is i manage to finish reading the petroleum paper. =)

we decided to eat dim sum and went 红星酒家!
hahaha... i only know that place when dad drove pass it one... never been there before..
lau dou went twice but also blur abt the location...
hahahah.. so the both of us "tried" according to memory to walk to the place...

and we found it!!!! so exciting!

forgot to take picture of the place coz we were 2 "饿鬼" already...
it end up being breakfast cum lunch leh... =P
food was quite nice! but i think i ate too fast and was full very fast.. hahaha...
both of our stomach is bloated so we sat there and chit chat for a while.. plus drink tea lah..

left the place and i saw...

the subordinate court!!!
wahseh... this's the place i only saw on tv before leh... so amazed to see it actually located in chinatown... hahaha..

and then we went OG to walk walk...

wanted to see see look look for new year clothes... (=P haven buy any yet... mommy is nagging already... )
but then din really see anything nice...
then lau dou say she need to buy 年糕...
and we went into the busy part of chinatown...

hahaha.. so festive loh!!! ppl everywhere...

think it's nice to go chinatown near new year season to walk walk...
can really feel the new year mood!!! ahahaha..
dunno why... especially excited abt new year this year...
maybe coz last yr din get to celebrate..

bought some stuff during the walk...

年糕 and "福"~~~
=)

it was still early so accompanied lau dou to orchard to look at handphones!
hahaha.. great minds think alike loh...
both of us had been eyeing the N95... but as it's 'a bit' too ex...
we're still see see only...
but lau dou got coporate plan... which make it more 划算for her to buy.. =)
i shall continue to eye it... till i've got the money... hahahah.. maybe i'll aim for coporate plan too.. it's much much cheaper loh...

we passed by the borders and i had so much fun taking pictures of their cards... hahaha..
trying to save some money here... =P
will post them up when it's time!

hmm... by the time we went taka's singtel shop...
my stomach isnt feeling too well already... think it's all becoz of me eating too fast earlier...
so we went mos to drink milk tea... hahaha..
but the main point was to sit down and rest lah.. =P

since lau dou had to wait for joe to come... we just sat that and talk.. hahaha..
talk abt our loving styles, our future career, our dream marriage and lots more lah...
hahaha.. even told her y i wanted to ask da shu to go watch xqrj...
hmmm.. it's definitely a big change from last time when we're still young and talk abt sch stuff only... cant believe that almost 10yrs had pass.... soon our friendship will take more than 2 hands to count already...

then joe came and i walk with her to find him...
got shooo away by joe...
honestly, i'm quite upset by his gesture..
how insensitive... 好歹我也是你女朋友得好朋友耶...
it's not like i'm going to stay and be lightbulb wad... =(
but nevermind le...
谁叫你是老豆的男朋友呢...

hmpf! i also want a boyfriend!

anyway, listening to my stone again while spending the long time waiting...
had 4 songs that caught my attention....

张惠妹 - 女人说
张惠妹 - 我恨我爱你
张惠妹 - 一夜情
孙燕姿 - 需要你

i really want to sing ktv!!!

anyway, i was home and decided to take pictures of me acting stupid..

and this's my favourite! scary??? hahahhaa..

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
take good care of urself. dun overwork..

"wouldn't it be nice if... we can meet up... "

爸爸的好。。。

2008-01-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

当需要一个男人的肩膀时，
无条件全天候为你而开放。

felling really tired today.
feel so upset that there's no one i could lie on.
thank God daddy called and want to pick me up from the mrt.
decided to be daddy's ger and lean on him when he's driving.
utterly dangerous i know.
but i really need to rest on someone.

think daddy sense my need to rest so he din ask me anything too.
just let me lean on him quietly.
felt safe and warm then.
thanks dad!

got rejected by mindef le!
dun really like it to hear the news from mom...
coz she make it sound like i disappoint her.
haiz.. not as if i could help it rite?
and i wasnt even really keen abt the job after the interview.
but nvm lah. at least now confirm wont be able to join them liao. =)
so that's 1 out of the list now.

went for the recruitment talk for macdemmort today. (erm.. dunno spell correct or not.)
filled up another application form.
hahaha... trying my luck everywhere it seems.
but i suppose they wont take in gers for field engineer position.
but we'll see how it goes ba...

seem like i'm going for every single recruitment talk. and filling up all the forms.
not even sure why i'm doing it.
but guess i just want to try out everything ba.
no harm in gaining interview experience ba.
but i feel i'm getting less and less excited abt the interviews.
can really sense the difference in attitude from last yr to now..
maybe i need to be more settled in the heart ba.
there's so many unknowns now that i dunno to set my heart in what...

had been listening to the songs in my stone quite frequently recently.
and felt that the songs can be classified according to the singers into how they make me feel.

梁静如的歌，感觉很幸福
阿信的歌，感觉心好像塑胶圈被拉的好远好远，却不被放开
SHE的歌，感觉到友爱
Shakira的歌，感觉好想跳舞
品冠的歌，感觉很温柔

the list goes on.. but just list a few ba.. cant remember everything also...

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

wah....

2008-01-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

i amazed myself sometimes.

actually went down to lab to do my hw for the petroluem mod.

but of coz as compared to kiat hui's standard, i'm still not good enough lah. =P
he is really hardworking to the max!
but it's very motivating to study with him. there's so many things i can learn from his attitude.

cant help but say i'm still quite lazy and nua lah..
but i'll try to improve on it.
push myself harder to get more things done.

interestingly today leon asked when we'll have another ktv session. (high 5 for that!)
hahaha.. as much as i want to go k,
offshore ppl aren't really the kind who will want to go ktv loh...
they rather be audience than singers. which makes the trip to ktv quite wasteful for them lah.
and it's always more fun to have ppl who like to sing to go together mah..

suddenly felt that
sometimes it takes a moment of 冲动 to achieve somethings.
had that moment last wk, but suddenly this wk it's gone.
guess it's just not that easy ba.
天时地利人和...
that's so difficult to combine together.

weird.. y am i sounding so depressed?
watever lah...

xqrj is coming.
who's interested?

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

后知后觉

2008-01-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

这次跌倒后，才发现自己已经不能像小时候那样
跌倒了，拍拍屁股爬起来就没事的到处跑了。

睡了一觉，起来才惊觉，
不单单只是受伤的手痛，其实全身都有些隐隐作痛。
跌倒时是跌坐着，所以尾骨好像是撞倒了。好疼！

撞击力不小。。。身子也好像比以前差。
真是糟糕！
要好好锻炼锻炼了。

不过像这样跌过了一晚才发现这里痛那里痛。。。
我也真是够迟钝了！

anyway, 今天陪了妈妈到巴刹后，回来无所事事的。
就上网看了“恶作剧2吻”，看到了湘琴和直树闹翻后离家出走。
看完了这一集，有了那么一点点的感触。

“自卑的我如果因为你而感到难过、受伤，
那么天才的你，会不会愿意弯下腰安慰一下我？
真的只要一下下就好。”

有时因为身边的人太耀眼，不禁就会感觉到自己的不争气。
在这种时候，其实并不需要身旁的他为我而停下来。
不过就希望他能够伸出一只手，拉一拉我。
肯定我并不是如自己想象的那么渺小。
这么一下下就好，让我有再战的勇气。

ok... 就是那么简单的感想。
一看就知道是无聊人的牢骚。。。

hmmm... 发现我好喜欢好喜欢这个学期上的课哦！
每晚去上课头好开心哦~也不会半途想睡觉了。=P
可是同样的热情，我分不到fyp那里。。。
不知道为什么，有点像泄了气的气球。
那里可以为气球打气？？？

唉。。。最近好看的电影真多！
好多想看得戏噢。。。
真想快点毕业！到时什么时候想看戏都行了。

又兴起去唱k 的念头了。
最近有想唱歌的感觉。。。

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
want sing k together?

oooooooooouch....

2008-01-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

got home today with a bloody hand...

fall on my butt at the com center bus stop when i was happily going home.

thought it's ok at first coz din see blood. but got a shock after i got onto the bus when the blood started ooshing out...

guessed i scared a number of ppl thru the trip back... but cant help it since i got nothing to wash the wound.. =(

it got more and more pain on the way back also... =(

but now i got it washed up le.. so still not so bad...

anyway, presentation today...

was really as bad as i expected.

but prof lee is really nice! considering the standard of my presentation, he's really nice to have given me a 6! especially since i couldnt answer any of his qns.. hahaha..

too panicky already..

but doesnt matter... presentation is over!!!~~~

anyway, got inspired by wat i read from 张小娴's blog.

so i decided to take pics of my shoes! hahaha...

i was actually quite bored when listening to my friend's presentation. and decided to be funny lah.. =P

so here it goes... my one and only pair of formal shoes! hahaha.. wore it for over 2yrs already. really value for money since i very rarely have a pair of shoes that last so long... so hopefully this pair will last me till the end of sch. =)

thank you shoes!

and while i was taking pic of my shoes, uncle robson who's sitting next to me decided to "chap ji kha"

see his shoe so shinny... of coz lah.. new one mah... hahaha... and my camera's flashlight was on... ahahaha... was really funny for us to be taking photos while our friend is presenting lah... =P ok.. it's was quite rude also.. but forgive us lah.. i sat in for an extra 2 more presentation just bcoz i agreed to see uncle robson's presentation... had to do something to keep me awake mah...

took pics of uncle robson's presentation too.. coz he told me to loh... hahaha.. say he want to post on his own blog.. so i wont spoil the fun.. wont post it here.. =P

but... one last pic of my shoes today...

the lonely shoes... (just the feeling lah.. )

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

thanks for the encouragement today. though i din really manage to follow wat u say. but at least things went well afterall.. =)

sleeping is good

2008-01-21T19:10:00.000+08:00

finally gave up and went to take a nap instead.

a good choice made i feel.

wake up fresh and finally settle my direction.

the results that doesnt look rite i'm not going to add in le!
it's my project anyway, i should decide wat is in and out.
going to explain to the phd student tml then...

and i got the animation done!
hohoho... look very much like uncle robson's standard.. =P
but heck lah. at least it make sense.

so glad i'm getting the slides done.
the lit review still a bit unsure
but if it's going to kill me then i guess i'll just touch very briefly.

uncle robson told me that prof harry isnt exactly that nice also.
hahaha.. so ok lah..
as long as i can pass it i'm fine with watever grades they give me now.
prof tan or prof lee also the same lah...
dun care le...

but i'm still nervous abt the presentation tml.
haven practise yet.
focus focus focus!

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
take care.

2008-01-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

doing presentation slides sux!
i'm turning emo just doing it.
grumpy giam giam now...

know nuts abt the topic.
messed up brain.
fried actually.

cant seem to be able to concentrate.
the figures are floating in my head.

tml presentation is going to be ....
i dunno how also.

want to sleep but have to keep myself awake.
raining outside now.
sleepy...

I MUST BE HAPPY

Migration...

what's his problem??? that idiot just have to piss me off.

me is happy.

冷

i actually read hardwarezone! *gasped* O_o

今天淋雨了

aunt agony is in agony...

pain... :(

365th post & 201则

if only the dream is real...

my hands and feet are freezing...

Finally there's SUN!!!

Peer Review

emotion cycle *updated

screwed up.

very random rumblings..

Flyer!

Bite.

my memory is bad???

i guess i'm a stupid idiot.

little things make me happy.

stop thinking.

wanted to blog long long one...

i did absolutely nothing today again! (oh no....)

did nothing today.

make me sleep

i thought i could brush it off.

10 more to the next level.

am i or am i not excited?

P.S. I Love You Movie is lousy. :(

finding excuse for everything.

haiya... wat to do?

Career Fair

So does girl really have an advantage over guys?

i can see the moon from my window...

house visits!

understanding role in family.

dun ask me wat happen. i dunno myself too.

I'm only just a girl, standing in front a boy, asking him to love her...

just being bo liao...

it's the usual tues lec post.

好羡慕哦。。。

Song of the day...

wat should i be feeling?

恭贺新禧！

i cant remember everything. but 大家新年快乐！

i missed the rigs...

bored...

drinking is still not good lah...

i should be more devil-ish...

$80/$20

I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES! ARGH...

if gor din mention wat he saw on tv...

Spring Clean!

boring day.

Amazing!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ROBSON!

today...

Wee~~~ meet up with liyan today! =)

爸爸的好。。。

wah....

后知后觉

oooooooooouch....

sleeping is good

i actually read hardwarezone! gasped O_o